Jesus is the answer for the world Today!

2010-10-26T14:30:00.005+08:00

Today marks my 10th year in church...time flies...when i 1st came...i was still in sec 3...how my friend reach out to me...hmmm...we were just having some random conversation in the classroom after our exams and I just mentioned I believe there is a God and Jesus, she was not very close to me...but when she hear that, she say u cannot just know but u mus experience Him...thats how she start reaching out to me...thank God for her boldness back then...we really seldom talk in class de...then the 1st time she invited me was to cell group at Redhill on Deepavali in the year 2000....haha....

When I went into the house…the people greeted me and she intro me to her cgl…a very pretty lady…hee…during worship, I felt something…at that time I din know it was the presence of God…and after cg…I accepted Christ…

these 10 years walking with God...its not a bed of roses...i went through all the different trials and tribulations...experiencing His love & grace over and over again...experiencing the joy...but i thank God that He is always there...and He send different ones into my life to be there with me...
wanted thanks all the leaders whom have been there for me and also friends...
CGL
Yvonne Chua (YK Zone)
Belinda Ho
Pst Edmund
Edmund Tan
Joseph Kwek
Jin Lian
Jerb
Minghui
Joanne
And now i m back in Jerb cg...haha...thanks to all my 9 leaders who was there at diff point of my life...to help me know God more, love Him more and to be there for me...Not forgetting a few friends who have been there...Throughout these 10 years...i try to name...10 years...many have been there at diff times...hee
Friends
Jane Law
Jiahui
Suting
Clara
Natalie
Kai Lin
Bernice
Jean
Siying
Sze Wing
Leny
Nikki
Evelyn
See Wan
Selena Lai
Selena Shen
Ravi
Sijia
Gwen
Weiying
Liting
Eunice
Peixiong
Pamela
Jing Jing
Xue Li
Yolanda
Germaine
Yan Ling (Church of our Savior)
Angeline (Jurong Christian Church)
Amy (Taiwan - SOT Friend)
Joanne (Sitiawan)
Ailyn (Sitiawan - SOT Friend)
Thanks for playing a part in my life...those who had being there and those who are still there :)

2010-10-11T16:36:00.003+08:00

Walau Seribu Rebah

Mercies that rise with the new morn
Set me apart as a new born
Each moment I live,
by faith I believe
With You I'm never alone

Darkness may come,
trials seem so long
You are the light
I depend on
Through valleys and storms,
Your word keeps me strong
My shelter, refuge and song
I trust in You

Everyday I live
I know You are my God
I lift my face and look to you my God
Even when the mountains tremble
And a thousand fall
I will stand with YouMy JesusTake my all

我从来不曾怀疑过
到底你有多么爱我
我生命里的每一分钟
都有你看顾着我

有的时候黑暗临到
有的时候巨浪狂风
我心依然满有平安
因为有你看顾我
我的主

不管前面道路有多困苦
耶稣你永远是我的帮助
只要有你在我生命中
永远看顾
我必能一路永跟随
我的主

Though I did not understand the Indo part, but I cried during that moment...As I go thru the dark Valleys, I am clinging to God. I know He is there...and I want to thank my cgl-Jerb and my best buddy and sis-Ailyn...for being there...to comfort...to speak the truth in love...to lecture and be firm when there is a need..I know I am not fighting this alone...God is with me...Jerb and Ailyn always make time for me in the midst of their busyness and I know if u r reading this...you will pray for me...I will fight on!!! The victory belongs to Jesus Christ!!!

My 1st Cruise & Genting Trip

2010-08-30T20:12:00.003+08:00

Thank God for such a great rest last week...thank God for great friends...went on my 1st cruise trip from 22-25 Aug on Star Virgo, stopping by Penang and Pucket...well...think normal price for this cruise is $500++...but i only pay $250 for it...cause my friend's mum got pts to redeem...i call this friend "mummy" cause she always nag at me but i know for my own good...some of u might know who i talking about...hee...

Sunday after svc went to Harbourfront to meet "mummy" and the mum and the friends of the mum...board the cruise at 3pm..and we tour around the cruise ourselves...had this nice international buffet dinner..then me and "mummy" just stay in the room to watch HBO...wanted to watch magic show de,...but in the end my eyes glued to the tv...haha..and guess what time i slp? healthy lifestyle sia...slept at 10.30pm...haha..and woke up at 8am on 23/08...went for our breakfast, rested a while and went tanning and swimming..of coz me dunno how to swim so ust went to soak water...haha...then went for lunch...we reach penang at bout 2 and we call for a cab on our own..well..still got cheated...the guy kip saying bring us to butterfly garden..and we din ask anything..when we reach..then we realise need pay RM$20...haha..then we went to the shoppigng centre...nothing much then we had tea break tasting all the penang kway tiao...the local delicacies..most of the time was spend on travelling..then after eating..we went to this mall to walk walk..as we shop...i was tired..cause nothing to buy...we told her mum and friends to gather at main entrance at 6.45...at 6.40 then we saw the mall got Padini..went in quick quick try 2 shirt and i bought it...one for RM$109 and another RM$50+...haha...then we each main entrance at 6.50pm...got scolded...cause the mum was worried...then we went back to the cruise...had dinner again...haha...shower then watch a show put up by the cruise crew then went back room...and slept again at 10+...haha...woke up at bout 7am on 24/08...when we woke up...we have already reached phuket...was kindly happy when i see those stores by the port...went to patong beach and bought a dress..bought 2 t-shirts at THB$150 each...and a jumper suit for my god-son at THB$180...baby's clothes more ex than adult de... i just love thailand...wanna go next year with sec sch friends...hopefully...hee...then went back on board at 4 plus...went tanning again...weird...din get tan from tanning but have become darker after walking at phuket for half a day...hee...love to look a bit tanner...then went back to shower and prepare for Gala dinner (captain's night)..."mummy" ordered white wine and we drank most of it...cannot finish.,brought back to cabin...then went to the show (part of gala dinner) put up by the crew...but dunno y...i was too tired that i dozed off...once we went back cabin at 10..din bother to switch on tv..i auto went to bed le...haha...dunno y so tired...woke up at 6.45am on 25/08...to watch sunrise and also went gym...i put on 1.6kg on that 4 days of cruise :( haha....was kind of relax...that was the last day le...i just watch tv...walk ard...went arcade...reach Singapore at bout 6 plus.;..had a GOOD trip...hee...was a healthy one with the the early sleeping and waking up early...hee

went for Genting with sec sch friends for irene's hens night...we board the bus at bout 10 on 27/08 and reach Genting at 4am the next day, went to the hotel to put our things and went Casino...Ling and Pat went back to sleep...rene and me went back at 9 plus in the morning to slp and woke up at around 11am...shifted to the resort and went for lunch at the mushroom restaurant...had a gd lunch and thanks rene's mum for the treat....we went to sing k for 3 hours after that...then shop ard for a while...then went dinner....after dinner, we went back to the hotel and shower...watch show...then went over to rene's room and start the hen's night party...haha..we had an enjoyable time...wahahahaha./...ended at bout 1am then all of us went casino again...except for ling...went back to hotel at bout 3am...then woke up at 9 the next day...haha...

during the cruise...i had plenty of slp...but went genting...super lack of slp...haha...so even till now..havebn adjust back...and going batam next thu to sat for church retreat with the adults in our zone...looking forward to it :) but jean and nikki only coming on fri :(

You are my Father

2010-08-19T17:09:00.013+08:00

What a NICE & BEAUTIFUL song...sing this in my daily QT..

It doesn’t matter where I run, You’re there for me
It doesn’t matter what I’ve done Your love’s for me
You wipe away the tears, You lift me when I fall
My life is safe by the mercy of Your grace

It doesn’t matter where I go, You walk with me
It doesn’t matter when I fall, You cover me
You wipe away the tears, You lift me when I fall
My life is safe by the mercy of Your grace

You are my Father, Provider
You’re my Deliverer
Your mercies embrace me, surround me
Through Your everlasting love

Father I worship You
Father I worship You

And Your love is for me
And Your love is for me
And Your love is forever

2010-06-10T11:51:00.001+08:00

Whosoever controls the tongue controls the whole body. What we speak, we are going to get.

If we keep on saying that we are able – that we can achieve success, then all of our body would be bridled to success. We would be ready to meet any challenge; ready to conquer it. This is the reason we should never speak in a negative way.

Feed your nervous system with these words constructive, progressive, productive, victorious words. Keep repeating them so that you can have control of your whole body. Then you will become victorious. For you will become completely conditioned to meet your environment and circumstances and achieve complete success.

这一生最美的祝福

2010-04-12T11:49:00.002+08:00

Attended Ronald's Holy Matt last month...and attended Yan Ling's Holy Matt ytd..heard this chinese worship song..its so nice..

Crucifying The Old Man

2010-04-10T10:34:00.000+08:00

Copied from Pst Kong's Blog
Crucifying The Old Man
10 Apr 2010

Knowing this, that our old man was crucified with Him, that the body of sin might be done away with, that we should no longer be slaves of sin. Romans 6:6

How can we ever come to a place where we seldom or hardly sin? The key is found in Romans 6:6 where it says that our old man needs to be crucified with Christ. What does that mean? Let me illustrate with this example:

Say there is this terrible man who drinks heavily and smokes a lot. He watches pornography on television all the time. He visits sleazy massage parlors and constantly cheats on his wife. Whenever he is in a bad mood or comes home drunk, he becomes violent and beats up his wife and kids. And whenever his wife and children come back from church, he would use the vilest profanities and start cursing God.

One Sunday morning, his wife and kids have gone to church and the man is watching pornography on television again. He has a glass of whiskey in his hand and a cigar in his mouth.
That Sunday, his family has a wonderful time in church. But as they approach home, they become very fearful. Would daddy be drunk when we enter the door? Would he beat us up again? But when they step into the house, they are shocked. The cigar and whiskey are by the table but the man is not smoking or drinking. The television is on but he is not watching it either. He didn't shout, curse or swear at them. He didn't get violent or beat them up. What happened?

The man had just died of a heart attack! And when he died, he also became dead to sin-to all his bad habits and vices!

The Bible says that at Calvary, Jesus took your old nature, the old man, the “old you”-who likes to sin, rebel, lie-and nailed it together with Him to the cross. In exchange, the new man, the nature of God in Christ, becomes alive in us. When we live out the life of the new man, the power of sin has no more hold on us.

A very important truth is that Romans 6:6 starts with the word "knowing." That word means "knowledge by experience" or "knowledge by supernatural revelation." That is why it is so crucial to have personal encounters with the presence and the power of God. Religious information to your head alone will not help you become victorious. You need daily encounters with God to live out the overcoming life in Christ.

I HAVE COME TO BOW DOWN

2010-04-09T16:15:00.001+08:00

I HAVE COME TO BOW DOWN
AT YOUR FEET LORD JESUS
IN YOUR PRESENCE
THERE IS FULLNESS OF JOY
THERE IS NOTHING,
THERE IS NO ONE TO COMPARE WITH YOU
I TAKE PLEASURE IN WORSHIPPING
I TAKE PLEASURE IN WORSHIPPING
I TAKE PLEASURE IN WORSHIPPING YOU LORD

我要屈膝敬拜
在主祢的脚前
何等喜乐
在祢的面前
无一事物
无一人能与祢相比
我心渴慕来敬拜祢
我心渴慕来敬拜祢
我心渴慕来敬拜祢耶稣

Oh Happy Day!!!

2010-03-23T08:41:00.002+08:00

Sang this praise song in CHCKL on sunday, this morning the song kept ringing in my mind...today is gonna be a HAPPY DAY :)

The greatest day in history, Death is beaten
You have rescued me
Sing it out Jesus is alive
The empty cross, The empty grave
Life eternal You have won the day
Shout it out Jesus is alive
He's alive

Oh happy day, happy day
You washed my sin away
Oh happy day, happy day
I'll never be the same
Forever I am changed

When I stand, in that place
Free at last, meeting face to face
I am Yours Jesus You are mine
Endless joy, perfect peace
Earthly pain finally will cease
Celebrate Jesus is alive
He's alive

Oh happy day, happy day
You washed my sin away
Oh happy day, happy day
I'll never be the same OHH NO
Forever I am changed

Oh what a glorious day
What a glorious way
That You have saved me
Oh what a glorious day
What a glorious name

YEAHHH

Oh happy day, happy day
You washed my sin away
Oh happy day, happy day
I'll never be the same
Forever I am changed
What a glorious glorious day,I'll never be the same

e song that we sang at the Youth Meeting w Pst Kong!!

2010-03-17T08:41:00.004+08:00

Never Let You Go - Niko Njotorahardjo

2010-03-08T12:54:00.001+08:00

recently we have been singing this song in church...i love this song...the words are all so meaningful...

Lord, You're more than anything
You're more than gold, more than anything
Lord, You're everything to me
I will never let You go, never ever let You go

Your love is higher, higher than the heaven
Your mercy's deeper, deeper than the earth
Your grace is wider, wider than the ocean
I will never let You go, never ever let You go

Perak - Sitiawan Trip 21/02/10-01/03/10 Part 2

2010-03-02T21:53:00.003+08:00

24 Feb
Woke only at 10 plus..haha..super tired...went to the centre for a while to check my mails and update facebook...haha...had crabs for lunch...yummy..love seafood...Ailyn and Eric went back to the centre and i stayed at home...babysitting experience...not easy sia...Aunty Saras was putting Kehyan to slp but at the same time kayla is sleeping...woo...finally got kayla to slp and i was really tired...haha...when Ailyn came back,i was telling her i dun wanna have kids...haha...adopt older kids back...but think i say only...wun do tt...went out for a while and they bought bak ku teh for me...bak gu teh here is nice..not like those in Singapore so salty and they give a lot of soup...imagine we pour out..the soup can be put into 2 bowls..hee...then they brought me to lumut...this very nice place..the only windy place..hahaah...enjoy the wind...went back to watch tv prog and had a chat with Ailyn eating pomela at the same time...enjoy the fellowship time...

25 Feb
Woke up at 8plus after receiving a sms from my manager in Singapore...haha...din do anything much in the morning...in the afternoon after Kayla came back from school, guided her in her homework,writing chinese characters...then after she took her afternoon nap..I went out together with Ailyn...went to had chendol with glutinous rice...wow..its was good to have that on such a warm day....cooling...after that i went or a full body massage at RM$50 for an hour...after my massage...the massage was shiok sia...waited at the shop for Ailyn to pick me up...then i was introduced to her 'sister", Joanne...this gal is so close to Ailyn that Kayla call her Joanne Yi Yi...well..intially when i met her...we din really talk much...haha..was shy...hee...then we went back to bring Kayla and Kehyan out...we went to this restaurant place call kenneth's place...and once we got the wep key...both joanne and i went online with our phone..she is carrying a e71...and eric was using his notebook...then ailyn was like..hey the two of u using phone then i....haha..me and joanne laughed...cause she was busy with her 2 kids...after that we went to Giant...that was when the ice was broken between me and joanne..though it was the first day we noe each other...but we had so much we can talk about..making fun and "bullying" each other...haha..(Joanne...i know u r reading this..hee...) we had our fun time buying diapers as they were on sale...haha...Ailyn was trying to find the brand drypers but could not find it...in the end me and Joanne saw it...and we were like standing there..taking the drypers and joanne on the phone with Ailyn saying we found it...we stood there to wait for ailyn to come over and joanne say people must be thinking what is these 2 young ladies buying diapers for..haha...btw..joanne is 19 this year..after that we went home...had another round of sharing with Ailyn bout my walk with God...good time of fellowship..hee

26 Feb
woke up at 9 plus...heard kehyan's voice from downstairs..hee..today is a public holiday in Malaysia and so Kayla had no school...we went to Mac for breakfast...went back to the house and was tired..joanne la..keep saying bout sleepin after a heavy breakfast...haha...ailyn went back to the centre..and i spent time with kayla..playing the role of the teacher...in the end..we decide to do cards...haha...she did a birthday card for the daddy and thank you cards for Joanne,Aunty Saras and of course her beloved mummy...its not a card though...just drawing on the paper...but its the thought that counts..she really put efforts in it...then it was her nap time....wow..she took a long time to sleep and i was really tired...finally at 4.30 she slept...4.45 someone pat me on my shoulder...haha..ailyn and joanne came to bring me out...i was tired...but i rather go out..hee..we went to this shop but nothing caught my eye...Ailyn bought something...then they brought me to dinner...had this rice mixed with thai sauce and orawns...quite worth it...it had 6 prawns in it and it cost only RM$5.50..ailyn and i say at the same time if its in singapore, they would only have 3 prawns...haha..went back after that for a short rest before proceeding to cg...they have their cg at 8 in the church...it was led by their pastor...pst Dave...great presence of God...went home feeling great...had another long sharing with Ailyn...bout my family...woo...1st time sharing with her...tears were in my eyes as i was sharing but i held back my tears...went to bed only at 2am...hee

27 Feb
woke up at 9..this time woke up by the chirping of the bird..haha...light sleeper ya?no la...had enough rest these days so think with enough rest...i would wake up hearing the slightest noise...hee..went to have roti canai(dunno if the spelling is right) with joanne,ailyn and kayla..went back and kayla got me and joanne to play puzzle with her...she took out 1..we finished together...she took out another 3,1 after another, but fix a few piece then the rest me and joanne fix...well..but we had a great time ya...took turns to take care of kayla and kehyan while ailyn discussed with Eric something in the room...joanne had better stamina than me when it comes to carrying kehyan...Joanne drove Ailyn to the centre and i stayed home with the kids..Eric's friend Jeff came to prepare ingredients for pasta for the next day's outreach...read a storybook of 10 pages to kayla before her nap...waited for Ailyn and Joanne to come back before we proceed to church for svc at 5pm...when i reached...i just stick with Joanne...cause dun really noe anyone in church...Pst Dave's wife, Vara whom i met during cg the day before remembered my name..haha...then we started praise and worship in chinese...one of the praise song we sang was Awaken my soul...we sang the worship song Through it All...

你永远在我的生命

你眷顾我的一生

用你双手覆庇我

引领我进入你同在

我眼仰望你

我心等候你

我向你献上
爱的诗篇

因你信实永不变

你的爱扶持我

每一天

你陪伴我身边

到永远

哈勒路亚

哈勒路亚
哈勒路亚

哈勒路亚

the presence of God was so strong..God spoke to me regarding some issues in my life..Pst preach a msg about dreams...n God spoke again...that night i had a good chat with ailyn...i told her what God had spoken to me and showed me my weakness...

28 Feb
woke up later today...at 9.10...oops..was late...svc is at 10...after i woke up...realise Ailyn had got the kids alomost ready...hee..went to church and Ailyn asked to carry Kehyan and bring kayla up first...well...when i reached...kayla went to find her friend and i carried kehyan into the hall...saw ailyn's cg member Jasmine and chatted for a while...one of the church mate came and wanted to carry kehyan...at first this boy turn away...haha...in the end still let her carry him...Jasmine was sayoing the boy have got used to me..haha...a bit lonely today cause joanne was not here...haha...eric led us into praise...we sang nothing is impossible in chinese...man...i could not catch up with the chinese words...haha...then Vara led us into a time of worship...we sang how great is our God and through it all...needless to say...God spoke again..wow...powerful weekend...God use 3 diff days to teach me diff things...and its just how amazing how He works...after the service we went downstairs to eat...i had bak gu teh ee mee...joanne came to join us for lunch..ailyn brought kehyan back 1st...kayla and myself went back in Joanne's car...after that we just chatted and played with the kids...well..then it was time for Joanne to go back to KL as she have school the next day...gal..though i din say anything...but was sad to see u leave...thank God for this friendship...though we just knew each other for 4 days...but it dun seem like it ya...you are no stranger to me..hahah...we ma chiam know each other for years ya...Jeff came to cook his pasta for the outreach...see how he cooked...and was saying find one day cook for my cg...haha...then we proceed to church at bout 4...begin to help out a bit here and there..haha..as if here for mission trip... mingle around with the people...there were a lot of food..then we started playing this game called the speed chatting...well..all the guys sat in a row and the gals in a row...opp each other...we were given 2 mins to ask as many qns to the person opp us...then after 2 mins..change...we took papers and wrote down all the answers...haha..then came the time when we have to choose representative up the stage to challenge...lady versus guy...we have to answer the question given of the other team...lets say the qns is what s his/her fav actor...i have to write the answer of teh guy on stage,..and he have to write mine...if both got it wrong or right..nothing happen...but if one ans wrongly and the other correct...the one who answer wrongly have to give his red packet to the other party...in the end 3 guys lost their ang baos to the girls...haha...fun game...exciting sia...haha...fellowship till late...got to chat with other members in the cg...though i might see them again the next time...but thesse are eternal friendships and i know i will see them in Heaven...thank God there is facebook...haha...took a number of pictures...went back...shared with Ailyn what God spoke to me in the morning...as we think back..its just amazing how God works...ailyn say imagine if back in SOT...i din lend my laptop to do assignment..we might not be so close and i might not have come to perak during this time and God would not have been able to speak to me cause my heart was so cold and hardened...and if i din come this trip...i would have meet a cray friend like joanne....oops...haha...God works in ways we can never imagine...well..kinda sad as it was the last night for me...

1 Mar
woke up at 7.30...cause my bus leave at 9am..starting to feel emo...haha...send kayla to school and had breakfast with Ailyn and Eric...the bus came at bout 9.30...gave Ailyn a hug before boarding the bus...she told me not to forget the lessons God had taught me here...haha...when the bus left..unknowingly there was tears in my eyes...sad to leave...it had been 7 wonderful days...days of fellowship...eating and time with God...reached Singapore custom at only 7.30pm...woo...so tired..watch movies in the bus then slp then watch movie again...there was a lady who vomitted blood in the bus when the bus was on the highway....so we had to wait for the ambulance to come and hence the delay...reached home..tired..but happy

Thank God for the friends made this trip(especially Joanne Dong)...Thank God for His lessons...Thank God for the good food and good time of fellowship...thank God for letting me realise parenting is really not easy and i really salute all parents out there...including my dad and my mum....really fruitful trip...Thank God for everything

Perak - Sitiawan Trip 21/02/10-01/03/10

2010-02-24T11:38:00.001+08:00

21-22 Feb
Met Ailyn at bout 5.30pm at Yew Tee Mrt Station and went over to her parents place to say good bye...after we reached, they decided to have dinner over there, i did not eat anything as i was too full from afternoon's steamboat, just drank a pack of water..we left singapore at bout 7pm,and travel all the way...Salute to Eric as he was driving, it is not easy...7 hrs on the road, baby kehyen and kayla fell alseep soon after we board the car, Ailyn and I chat for a while and we felt tired, we took a nap in the car, Eric just kept onn driving, listening to the radio and sing out to keep himself awake...woke up bout 2-3 times and fell asleep again, at bout 11pm, i woke up again and Ailyn say we had lost our way, took the wrong exit and went into KL...haha...so we stopped there, Kayla had her porridge and Eric had ice cream (they ordered corn and they gave him cone) and french fries, i was still quite full so din eat anything, Eric say my steamboat really worth it, can tahan so many hours...hee..then we went on the road again, we reached Sitiawan at bout 2 plus in the morning, earlier than we expected...we estimate to reach bout 3am, but we reach earlier despite getting lost in KL...we unload the things in the car boot,wow....there are really a lot of things...they have a big house(2-storey)...haha...their kitchen is bigger than the ones in Singapore...after which Ailyn showed me my room and soon i went to bed...next morning i woke up at bout 10am, went down to play with kayla after which we went for branch, i had cha kway teow..went back to fetch Kehyen and brought both kayla and kehyen to the chinese doctor,came back and played with Kayla...she being the teacher and me being the student..then Ailyn decorate a photo frame with Kayla which she wants to give to her Callie jie jie...at bout 3 in the noon, kayla took a nap and finally Ailyn and I have some time to talk...haha...its not easy to have some fellowship among ourselves with the kids around unless they sleep...hee...at bout 5 plus, i also went to take a nap...kayla came to wake me up at 6.30 to go for dinner...went to Eric's parents place at Ayer Tawar for dinner...wow...love home cooked food, there was soup, mushroom with veg and prawn(my fav)..hee..during dinner...ailyn was saying she wants to find me a rich husband so i will stay here and accompany her...haha...and she ask kayla whether she wants me to stay...she say yes and begin to think of who they can pair me up with...and this gal dun give up so easily...haha...she kip giving names after names...haha...and some silly qns...nake me n ailyn kept laughing..haha...after dinner, we played with kayla and kehyan...its really not easy to handle both at the same time...we play with kayla we will see kehyen crawling over...we play with kehyen..we will have kayla comin to us...wow...that night kayla really had a good time, she mentioned she was very happy because mummy had no work and spent time with her...we went home and dabao mee rebus and curry beehoon on the way back...i had mee rebus and it was really nice...compared to Singapore..haha...Ailyn say she want to feed me 4 meals a day, breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper...haha...looks like i dun put on weight is fake de...haha...we watch tg shows till 1 plus, eric played the disc Bruce Almighty...so i also continue to watch the show...went to bed at bout 3am...tired..oh...i carried baby kehyan...its been so long since i last carried a baby...after a while...my hand begin to ache...haha...too little exercise...received 2 angbaos today - from Eric's mum and from Ailyn...haha...

23 Feb
Woke up as early as 8am...madness...haha...slept for only 5 hrs...went for breakfast and they brought me to eat prawn mee....yummy..the food is really tasty and it is without MSG...woo...i finish the soup as well...we went to bank to deposit the angbao $$ at AmBank...they had this promotion which is u deposit RM$500, you get a chance to go into this thing to grab the color papers, the number of paper and u take determines the gifts you can exchange for...haha...and red represents cash...well....it is not easy with all the paper flying about...the 3 of us got some gifts in exchange..hee...then they deposit another RM$500 and eric went for another round, with the experience, he grab more this time and we had quite a number of gifts, after which we went to stand chart and went to pick Kayla up from her school, went home to change and she asked me to shower her...haha...also my first time...looks like i have a lot of 1st time trying on on Sitiawan...hee...we went for a delicious seafood lunch and it was yummy..Eric invited 2 friends from Stand Chart for lunch...in the end they pay before going off..so paiseh....we went to Ailyn/s friend- Callie's shop to pass her the photo frame that kayla had decorated and i bought 2 tops there...we brought kayla back for her afternoon nap and Ailyn and i went out..noe she is tired but still brought me out...touched...thanks for being such a great host...we went a shop where her church member is working and i bought a dress there...tried 3 pcs and can only fit in 1...time to lose weight...haha...after this trip...we went to the education centre where i can finally access to my e-mails and facebook...wow...once i am on msn..a lot pple pop me questionns here and there...thenn we went back at 6.30 and rested...went for leaders meeting with them...din have dinner causen of the late lunch but we had supper...haha...eric went out to buy hor fun for me...woo...the hua dan hor really have a lot eggs...hee...yummy...went to bed at 1am...oh ya..the weather here is really really hot...cannot tahan sia..was telling ailyn this will be the only thing i will NOT miss in Sitiawan...haha...

To be continued.....

Bangkok trip 17 Jan - 19 Jan

2010-01-21T21:37:00.004+08:00

wow...haven been blooging for a long time...1st post in 2010 will be my bkk trip from 17-19 jan 2010...hee...booked jet star last year when there was a one for one promotion, me and my colleague,ann bought tix to bkk...and it cost us SGD$89 each...then we book Diamond City Hotel and they had promo too i think...each one of us pay $45 each for 2 nights...
on our1st day there, we reach at bkk timr 12.30,took a cab to our hotel and check in...took the bts(their mrt) to chatuchak and started shopping ard...wow..the things were cheap and nice...i bought 3 dresses at the price of bout 200baht each which is bout SGD$10...haha...then bought some t-shirts too..went back to hotel and put our things before going to MBK...hee...bought a sweater to 300baht...had our dinner there..steamboat...
went back to hotel for thai masssage..then went to bed...hee...
second day went walk ard...bought soveniers more and saw lots of kitty and pooh stuff...din really do much and 2nd and 3rd day except shop ard...but din buy much cause already spend SGD$100 on 1st day...oh ya...2nd day had bird nest and also shark fin during dinner...yummy...plus some dim sum, only cosst us SGD$20...hee...
saw this in our room...funny sign.."we have to play for the damages?"haha
anyway i want to go back again...with more money the next time...haha

2009-10-15T23:56:00.003+08:00

the more i listen to this song..the more i like it..."我的爱" by 蔡淳佳

This was the theme song for the channel 8 series "By my Side" or 不凡的爱 ...nice show...was touched by Elvin love towards Rui En...will i find someone who love me this much? i like what Elvin always mention in the show "只要不放弃，就会有奇迹出现的一天“...will i find someone that love me so much like Buqun and Yuhang in the show?

SUN's Fancy Free

2009-10-08T09:58:00.000+08:00

Free sun's cd fancy free. With every U weekly issue 200 and wan bao newspaper at buzz outlet. From 5th oct to 11 oct. While stocks last! Do support her:-)

Woke up feeling like a millionaire
Walking down the street with the wind in my hair
All the boys stare, say I look so good
No, I'm not cocky but I knew that they would
Cause everywhere I go my life is a party
I don't have a worry, the sun keeps on shining on me
Look how it's shining on me, looking at me
All of their eyes are on me (All of their eyes are on me)
And I....

I feel so beautiful, (I'm lovely)
Can't no one tell me no (I'm fancy free)
My life's a circus show (Its's lovely)
No matter where I go (I'm fancy free)

Dee, dee, dee, dee
Dee, dee, dee, dee, dee, dee
Dee, dee, dee, dee, dee, dee, dee

I'm fancy free
Feels just I'm on a shooting star
Made my wish to be a super star
If I'm wrong and dream don't come ture
I'll just make today what I want to
Have your say, you can't break my high
You should join me on my carpet ride
Let's play, what you sat?
Say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
It's so easy, see that's your problem right there
You 're too cool, (Yeah, yeah)
I'm just tryna have fun, stop worrying so much
And just follow me
Cause I feel so beautiful
Can't no one tell me so
My life's a circus show
No matter where I go
I'm fancy free

Back to Work...Time flies when You are resting

2009-09-28T08:51:00.002+08:00

In the morning when I reach Office
Wa, Fri(25/09/2009) I was on leave and Sat(26/09/2009) was my off day...guess how many emails there are in my outlook express today when I turn on my Com? There are a total of 43 emails...faint..haha

At bout 11am
Wa...its coming to 11 and i just finished replying all emails and acting on the emails...fainted...half day gone...

I’ve done 16 stupid things out of 37

2009-09-27T17:47:00.002+08:00

“I’ve done __ stupid things out of 37″ in the title field.

STUPID TEST

[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking
[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking
[X] You have ran into a glass/screen door
[ ] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle
[X] You have thought of something funny while walking by yourself
[X] Laughed, then watched people give you weird looks

So far:3

[ ] You have run into a tree/bush.
[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow
[ ] You have tried to lick your elbow… a few times
[X] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm.
[X] You just tried to sing them.

So far: 5

[X] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[] You have choked on your own spit .
[] You have seen the Matrix and still don’t get it.
[] You’ve never seen the Matrix.
[] You type only with two fingers.

So far: 6

[] You have accidentally caught something on fire
[X] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your
nose/eyes.
[X] You have caught yourself drooling.
[] You have fallen asleep in class and fell outta your chair

So far: 8

[X] Sometimes you just stop thinking
[X] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about
[ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from you
[ ] You are often told to use your “inside voice”.
[ ] You use your fingers to do simple math

So far: 10

[X] You have eaten a bug (Dead ones - during church Fear Factor)
[ ] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important
[ ] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and
didn’t realize it [i went to macritchie from yewtee with my pe shorts the other way]
[X] You’ve looked all over for something and realized it was in
your hand
[ ] You have ran around naked in your house.

so far: 11

[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don’t.
[X] You break a lot of things.
[X] Your friends know not to use big words around you.
[X] You tilt your head when you’re confused
[X] You have fallen out of your chair before

So far: 15

[ ] When you’re lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the
texture of the ceiling or wall
[X] The word “ummmmm” is used many times a day.

TOTAL: 16

My Cg member - Jing Ying

2009-09-26T02:12:00.002+08:00

Monday me and my cg went to Buona Vista in the evening to celebrate Xiao Lu's birthday...that day Jing Ying was sitting beside me during dinner and we had a great chat..this gal is really cute..like to listen to emo songs..haha...then we say find one day want go ladies night together and also ktv...hmmm...then when going back, i find her a bit upset upset so i dropped her a sms...then i tol her not to listen to too many emo songs...haha...from there we chat a bit and she mentioned i like a sis to her...this gal so cute...go share in cg today..during testimony say at first she thought i hard to get along with and i thought she very proud...but after monday, she felt this yuan fen between us and say i like her sis...haha..at that point of time..i was kinda paiseh..but very happy..thannk God for this friendship or should i say sistership...she is actually very lovable after knowing her...hope our friendship gets better and better each day...haha

Lost my Thumbdrive :(

2009-09-17T18:24:00.001+08:00

Quite upset de...my manager will usually borrow thumbdrive from me and return, cause he lost his thumbdrive few months back...as i have 2 thumbdrive in my office, i would always lend him the one i din do my work in...but that one have all my pictures inside..it contains photos of my water baptism, of my days in SOT(Bible School), my days in church, most of the photos taken since I was 16 yrs old, about 8 yrs...yesterday he misplaced the thumbdrive, we search everywhere in the office but could not find it. he recalled taking out from the conference room after using and putting it on his desk, we checked the cctv in office but no clues, we search again but could not find it..aunty pantry and chris even search the big dustbin but also found nothing...its just a 1 gb thumbdrive, but its the photos in there, and also the meeting info they had in the conference room. Pray that i be able to find my thumbdrive, actually i not so sad de, but as i think of all the photos which bring back the memories, i felt more and more sad..

Psalm 73:26

2009-09-17T17:49:00.000+08:00

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Psalm 30:5

2009-09-16T09:02:00.001+08:00

Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.

Psalm 34:18

2009-09-15T11:47:00.001+08:00

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit

Letting Go and Let God take over

2009-09-14T16:54:00.005+08:00

Last few weeks had been really bad for me. Got involved in this relationship with Mr X. But we were only together for 7 days (to be exact 4 day, the other 3 days he was cold towards me). My heart breaks when we broke off, I cried badly. After a few weeks, a friend told me he could not forget his ex-girlfriend, they were together for 10 years. Then my question is in the first place, why start? Its all over now and we are good friends.

I wanna thank a few friends who had really been there, my colleague – Benedette & Ann, they had really been there, listening to my nonsense and buying me chocolates to eat. I wanna thank my Jie (Angeline), though she kept rubbing salt into my wounds, but I know it was for my own good, cause I never learn my lesson. I wanna thanks Kai Lin from my zone, though she dunno what happen, but she read my blog and left me a message in facebook to ask if I am ok, she cared and was concern, I believed there are a few others who read my blog but only Kai Lin left me a message. Thanks gal, I really appreciate it. Thank my ushers “mei mei” – Yolanda, Priscilla & Wendy.

Thank my cell leader Joanne and my connect group leader Selena, though I only let you guys know after the whole thing is over, but I believed you guys kept me in prayer and will continue to do so. Had a very very long talk with Joanne yesterday after fellowship with cg. I also wanna thank God, for being there for me, sending different ones around me when I was at my most down period. Thanks for sending Pst Phil and Pst Kong to preach timely messages that really helped. I will stay loyal to this relationship I had with God.

Was still a bit depressed on Saturday, went service on Sunday not knowing what to expect, presence of God hit when we sang the worship song “Above all else” & “The God I know”.

No eye has seen
No ear has heard
Unfailing love
Far beyond words

The cross I see
Your blood redeems
My Imperfection
Your hands divine
Come shape this heart of mine

Here I stand, thirsting for you
Here I am, surrender to you
Let my life be you clay
Mould me in your way
Here I stand, desperate for you
Here I am, a vessel for you
Let my life sing your praise
Bring honor to your name

Beauty unfolds
Joy overflows
Your grace begins
This treasure within

Above all else
Above all else
We exalt you
We exalt you

Because of You
I was born again
Because of You
I’m ransomed by Your grace
Because of You
My heart has found a home
A refuge for my soul

Because of You
Sins are washed away
Because of You
Heaven knows my name
Because of You
I can live again

You’ve broken every chain

Unfailing Love,so unreserved
You gave Yourself on Calvary
And now I stand, forever free
My Saviour rescued me

Now heaven, be open
Our God is, unshaken
We worship, Christ risen High above
Now heaven, be open
All kingdoms, all nations
Declare that “You are God”

During the preaching of the word, I cried. During Altar call, I told God that I lift everything up onto his hands and ask Him to heal me, not just in my body but also emotionally. Felt so much better today.

Mr X, dun think you have my blog anyway or facebook, but thanks for giving me that 4 days, I was very happy. These will be my memories.

2009-09-14T14:13:00.000+08:00

In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing.

It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all.

2009-09-12T11:34:00.001+08:00

Love is almost like suicide.
You give so much to that special someone
that you sometimes end up killing yourself inside.

2009-09-11T11:32:00.000+08:00

I`m tryin really hard n0t
t0 cry over y0u cuz every
tear is just a reminder of
h0w muCh ii can`t let go

2009-09-10T08:47:00.001+08:00

Why is it no matter how much pain the heart
endures by holding on, the heart refuses to let go?
Why waste your time getting hurt by someone when
somewhere out there , there’s someone waiting
just waiting to make you happy?

2009-09-09T08:41:00.000+08:00

Love is like a puzzle. When you're in love, all the pieces fit but when your heart gets broken, it takes a while to get everything back together.

2009-09-08T09:07:00.001+08:00

If the heart is one of the strongest muscles, why is it so easy to break?

2009-09-07T09:48:00.001+08:00

It's so curious: one can resist tears and 'behave' very well in the hardest hours of grief. But then someone makes you a friendly sign behind a window, or one notices that a flower that was in bud only yesterday has suddenly blossomed, or a letter slips from a drawer... and everything collapses.

2009-09-06T09:47:00.000+08:00

There are times when I cant decide whether to see you or not, I want to see you because I miss you but there are times when I dont want to see you because everytime I do, the fact that you dont see me the way that I see you hurts me even more ...

2009-09-05T12:18:00.001+08:00

its sad when you meet someone who means a lot to you,
And you find out in the end that it was never meant to be,
And you just have to let go...

2009-09-04T08:40:00.000+08:00

When you like a boy, all you do is wonder "Does he like me?" and when he finally asksyou out, all you do is wonder"When is he gonna break my heart?"

2009-09-03T09:55:00.000+08:00

People say not to cry because it’s over but to smile because it happened but how can you do that when just thinking of the good times makes you wanna cry?

2009-09-02T08:58:00.000+08:00

There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go.

2009-09-01T17:21:00.001+08:00

The weirdest thing happened this morning...I woke up with tears in my eyes...and one rolling down my cheek...and I knew I must have been dreaming of you.

God is Good!

2009-08-31T11:41:00.001+08:00

Yesterday is just an amazing day, on Friday actually i was thinking whether i wan to go in Malaysia cause my colleague is getting married and we are all invited, at that time i still dunno that Pst Phil is coming for the weekend as i missed cg and svc last week, i decide not to go for the wedding.

ytd during svc, the presence of God was very strong, the 2nd worship song, dunno whether is a new song or they sang it last week, i just went on my knees as i sang, going thru some tough time in life now, A movie star from Indonesia shared his testimony and as i listen, i was touched, once again, God's presence was there. I knew that God is using this svc to speak to me, but i dunno what, i kept my heart open. Pst Phil preach about the way satan/devil can enter into our lives, and he had a "mini deliverance", we no need respond to the front but just repeat a prayer in our seat. about 1-2 months ago, i was telling Minghui i think i need some help, i hated my dad till a point i wish he is dead or i can kill him, my anger prob became worse and i hate the family, i hate my dad, after repeating the prayer after Pst Phil, tears kept flowing down my cheeks, i just kept crying, and i felt something lifted out of me, i kept coughing (should be coughing those hatred & unforgiveness spirits out), i felt so much beta after svc, will keep on praying so that the devil have no room/vacacy in my life.

went fellowship at Bedok and was walking around for 2 rounds, dunno what to eat. haha...saw Sheila (my boss's insurance agent) and her husband who is a pastor in another church, she intro me to some nice food...thank God for her else i would have buy the duck rice which i dun feel like eating..hee..

met up with Jonas and Cindy after fellowship at City hall, had a coffee at TCC and proceed to settlers cafe at Clarke Quay and stayed there from 6-10pm..we kept changing games in the beginning but stick to a game called "True Colors" for 2 hrs, we kept laughing throughout the game..haven had a a long time laugh so loud and happy, really so relieve of all the stress at work.

Reach home at 11 and i dun feel tired, the amazing thing is i went ktv with colleagues on sat till 4 and reach home at 4.30, slept at 5pm, woke up at 7.30am. but i dun tired ytd at all, and today i am still energetic. God is good, he is
1. Jehovah jireh (Gen 22:14) “The Lord will provide a sacrifice”
2. Jehovah rapha (Exodus 15:26) “The Lord our Healer”
3. Jehovah nissi (Exdos 17:15) “The Lord our Banner”
4. Jehovah shalom (Judges 6:24) “The Lord our Peace”
5. Jehovah raah (Psalms 23:1) “The Lord our Shepherd”
6. Jehovah tsidkenu (Jeremiah 23:6) “The Lord our Righteousness”
7. Jehovah shammah (Ezekiel 48:35) “The Lord is Present”

2009-08-29T12:25:00.000+08:00

2009-08-22T12:26:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since I last blog...sorry guys...hee..a lot have happened for the past few months...

Once again, I am in the Dinner & Dance Committee in my work place, last year do le thought this year can relax, but apparently those who got selected last yr to be in the committee either have left the company or they have request to withdraw from the committee due to increased workload in 2009, so here i am, again in the committee...but actually my immediate superior din really like it, and one thing was my fault was i agree to it without discussing with him 1st, he din really want me to be in the committee due to some reasons which are reasonable...but then i dun want to back out cause they really cannot find people le, everyone is busy but we just sacrifice our lunch time and weekends to discuss bout D&D things, i din dare and dunno how to tell my immediate superior that i was still in the committee, after much praying, after a few weeks, i drop him a sms on a sat saying he might have known i am still in the committee, its not due to disrespect that i din tell him earlier, its just that i dunno how to tell him, well, i was scared as i am waiting for his reply, but it turn out fine, everyone in the committee say is i myself think too much le...my immediate superior say as long as i can finish my primary tasks, he is ok with it and ask me do my best in the committee, dun throw his face..haha... but then, after taking hte role of a committee members, stress came and i started to do ot again after fleeing from ot for months...haha...

my immediate superior is back in reservist for 2.5weeks, i have to cover his stuff + my on hand things + D&D2009, I already stayed back for ot on thu and fri, but good for me is I have a friend who is nice to wait for me. He is from Thailand and he is here for training, he will go back to Thailand in Oct and start work in our depot in Thailand. His nickname is Bank...haha...all of us were saying we are DBS, OCBC, UOB and others...Bank told us cause some of the thai name is so long, so all of them have a nickname..his real name is hard to remember. Bank is a nice guy, haha, he make me have a new perspective of Thailand and he is really a very gentleman. cause we are quite on good terms, some of the colleagues keep pairing us up together, but we are just good friends. yesterday i was very stress at work and i cried, most of the colleagues went back on time but i need to stay for OT, i know Bank was around and he missed the company transport. most of my colleagues who stayed behind left at 6.30 or 7pm. 2 colleagues got a lift from our boss and i say i will stay cause i cannot finish the work on hand, after a min, one of the colleague say Bank is still ard downstairs waiting for me. i ask her to ask Bank to come up, he came up and say he thought i left already cause he saw some of my friends leaving. then he just sit in front of me and waited till i finish my work before going for dinner together. thank God for this friendship during this stressful period of time.

later i be going pulau ubin to recee the place for our D&D and staying over the night to discuss about everything, missed cg cause need ot ytd, have to miss svc cause wun be back in time for svc...i miss my members...haha

我獻上自己

2009-07-24T17:15:00.003+08:00

Have been listening to the "Fly High" Cd and practising this song for our church anniversary next sunday...this song is originally from an Indonesian song "Inilah Hidupku"...for those without cd can listen to the song in this link

我獻上自己

我只愿能更多亲近你
依偎在你同在里
更贴近你的心意…
我只愿能全心依靠你
永远不离开你…

是你赐给我生命气息
赐给我温柔的心
让我能全心相信…
世上无人能够取代你
一生只愿为你…

主我献上自己
成为爱的器皿
来完成你旨意
一生永不放弃…

主我献上自己
求塑造我生命
指教我你命定
我全人只为你
一生只愿为你…

Etude House

2009-07-13T11:29:00.002+08:00

Recently got to know this shop in Plaza Sing through my cg member-Karyie, the name of hte shop is Etude House, They sure know how to capture the hearts of the gals, Trudy and Karyie and Li Jun went there 4 weeks ago and spent $50 over each person...Joanne Went 3 weeks ago and also spent slightly more than $50, I went yesterday and spent $90 for a eyeliner, eye shadow, toner, facial cream, nail polish remover, eye n lip make up remover, cotton pad, a nail polish, think thats all...haha..never spent so much in a shop before...well..spent above $50 and get a lifetime membership card which entitles you a 7% discount on every purchase...so the few of us got the membership cards now...haha...interested to go back to buy 1 of the products that deal with dark eye ring and some nail polish but think after getting next month pay...hee..one thing i like is that is this sale gal by the name of Karyn, she is a nice gal...she recognize us after our 1st visit there...and she remember trudy's name when she wrote down her name for the membership card 4 weeks ago, we were quite surprise when she say trudy's name...and she is not those kind of sales gal who will push you to buy their products...hee...i love this shop...and i think the thing they sell, the price are reasonable..hee...here is a link more bout that shop...http://www.makeupstash.com/2009/06/etude-house-singapore-price-list.html

PS: everytime we go this shop, me, karyie and trudy will fellowship for hrs at PS...ytd we chat for 2-3 hrs eating cheesecake at mac(Trudy's ideas)...see how she cut the cheesecake when she post the video on facebook bah...hee...

Draw me closer to you, Lord

2009-07-09T22:32:00.002+08:00

this period of time have been really testing and trials for me...i justncry easily...some friends ard me say i emo....have been thinking a lot thesefew weeks...

y did God put me in this family...where there is no love,no communication in the house....everyone just treat it like a hotel...when i face problems at work..who can i share with at home..NO ONE...have anyone ever try to understand what i m going throught?after a stressful day at work...icome back to a home where there is no one..cannot even watch the tv to relax...cause will be scolded the next day...can't just stay home and rest...i got so many days leave but none i can jsut stay home and rest...cause of dad's weird behavior..

in workplace..whydid my closest friends suddenly not talk to me months ago...found new friend but yet leaving soon..my good friend clara inHR....nw i also doing a bit HR...i felt stress...really stress..

change to a nnew cg comingto 2months..still trying to adapt to the new cg..though things are getting beta...but....haiz...

tired of crying...God...help me...get out of this wilderness

Deeper in love

2009-07-06T11:52:00.002+08:00

SATU HAL YANG KURINDUKAN YA TUHAN
ONE THINGS HAVE I DESIRED IN MY LIFE LORD

SELALU BERADA DI DEKAT-MU
TO THIRST AND HUNGER AFTER YOU ALONE

DENGAN SEG'NAP HATI DENGAN SEG'NAP JIWA
WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL WITH ALL MY STRENGTH AND LOVE

KUMENANTI DI HADIRAT-MU
TO WORSHIP AS YOUR GLORY FILL THIS PLACE

LEBIH DALAM LAGI KURINDU KAU TUHAN
DEEPER IN LOVE WITH YOU DEEPER IN LOVE WITH YOU

LEBIH DARI SEGALA YANG ADA
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN LIFE

LEBIH DALAM LAGI KUCINTA KAU YESUS
DEEPER IN LOVE WITH YOU DEEPER IN LOVE WITH YOU

KUMENGASIHI-MU
OH HOW I LOVE YOU LORD

God, i love you more than anything in life, help me to overcome what i am facing..God, i want to trust you in the area of relationship, God, i trust in you, that you will provide, God, help me to love you more and more each day. i never want to leave you ever again.

Morning Prayer from 8 - 12 June 2009

2009-06-12T13:12:00.001+08:00

Today marks the last day of the morning prayer for this period. Pst Kong was there every morning to lead us to pray in the spirit from 6.45-7.15am, then he will share a verse with us before we pray on our own for 15-20 mins, then worship and pray together.

Philippians 2:12-13
Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling; for it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure.

Thats the difference during school holidays and not.when its normal school days, i wake up at 5.45 and reach church at bout 7, but during scholl holidays, i wake up at 5.45 and i reach church at 6.30am...haha...this week morning prayer have been great and refreshing...though i wake up early, but i dun feel tired at all during work, instead i have more ideas to my proposal and more effective in work...hee...tonight looking forward to song of solomon bs part 3 by pst kong...

ytd chat with Eunice over the phone..so happy...cannot believe she will be back in less than a week time..i want a big bear hug..haha...eunice, i going to intro my new cgl-Joanne to you :)

HaAPPY HAPPY!!!

2009-06-10T13:38:00.000+08:00

so happy today...hee...recently in work, my performance have not really been up to the standard of my director and some of things he is not very happy with it...haiz...was feeling upset, down and discouraged about it...was thinking am I really suitable for the executive post?

last Fri i did a presentation of my colleagues from Vietnam and my director was inside...normally this presentation is done my manager but cause he was on leave, i had to present it on last fri...but after that, i din know how well/badly i did cause din receive any feedback...till just now...my director was telling my manager that i did a very good job..he told my manager that he be surprised how well i can present...even better than one of our marketing executive who always presents our company profiles to customer..my manager say too bad he was not there to see how i have presented..

he told me my director wants me to present it again but in chinese next fri to one of our future colleague from China...stress cause this time my manager be there too but happy to hear the compliments..was telling my manager have been receiving some negative feedbacks and felt stress...he say stress is a good thing..haha...then i say finally something good..he also very happy for me...cause once my director complement...means i have really done well :)

Song of Solomon BS Part 2

2009-06-06T10:55:00.001+08:00

Bible study was simply great ytd..the presence of God was strong..during worship i was crying..when Pst Tan was preaching i cry too..he mentioned that the shulamite woman was in her winter season and everone of us have our winter season..and there are times when our leaders cannot help us, we just have to go through it ourself, but after every winter comes spring, so after every death comes resurrection, he mention that when we are in our winter period, we cry easily cause our heart is tender, i felt that ya, i have been in my winter period, maybe God has been calling me out of my "house" to experience the spring, but i chose to stay in the "house" like the shulamite woman.

Joanne is my 9th cgl in 9 yrs, i felt no one will ever understand how i feel cause dun think people change as many cg as me..i was just tired, i chose to be laid back..but Pst Tan preach that what Jesus go through we go through, as believers, we believe that after we die, we will resurrect and be in Heaven like Jesus, Jesus went through water baptism, that y we get water baptised, why do we get baptise in the Holy Spirit?cause the spirit came upon Jesus after He was water baptised by John, Jesus went through 40 days in the wilderness, he went through the bearing of cross and death. thats y sometimes we go through the diffcult times so we may be able to identity with Christ..though i felt no one can understand how i felt with changing cg after cg, but i know Jesus understands, He went to cities after cities to preach the gospel, he did not just stay in 1 city..

after the bs ytd, when i reach home, i sms joanne to ask she is asleep and we chat on the phone...i told her bout what i felt and why i seem so cold, not bother about the cg..cause at that time in my mind, i told myself if i dun want to change cg again, the way is to not share with my leader and not be so involved in the cg, just a normal member..but that is not my calling..i m called to do greater things, how can i be so selfish as not to do God's work just because i am tired of all the change..i know i will soon enter my spring period..DEVIL, YOU THINK YOU CAN MAKE ME GIVE UP?YOU ARE WRONG...Jesus, give me the strength and continue to lead and guide me..i want to enter spring and see the things you have in plan for me..thank you for the Song of Solomon bs which have benefited me alot these 2 weeks..Joanne, give me some more time to adapt to the cg :)

Song of Solomon Churchwide BS was simply great!

2009-05-30T10:19:00.001+08:00

Yesterday went for churchwide bs at expo. Slept all the way in the train as dun have enough rest the night before. Had conference call with Clara and Peilin till 3 plus, but by 2 plus I already ko, most of the time is they talk, I half asleep half listening to them talk. Haha.

Ytd bs was great, Pst mentioned that the Shulamite woman was dry in her walk with God and how God strengthen her and how she walk with the anointing of God and the presence followed her and she impacted others. At the end of the bs, pst shared a song which he wrote and as he read out the lyrics, the presence of God was so strong that tears flow down my cheeks, after that we sang the song and I just kep crying in the presence of God. It was a great time.

God, forgive me for the times that I have the thought of giving up, forgive me the times when I was so selfish and I put my needs above You. God, thanks for sending friends and all types of resources helping me in times like this when I am at my down period. God, I dun want to just give up and leave like how I did in the past, Holy Spirit, please fight this battle together with me. God, I want to put you first above all things in my life, God, I dun wan to live on other people’s revelation, I pray you give me fresh revelation. God, help me out of this whole battle. God, I want to love you more each day.

2009-05-29T09:55:00.000+08:00

But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a broom tree. And he prayed that he might die, and said, “It is enough! Now, LORD, take my life, for I am no better than my fathers!” 1 Kings 19:4

In 1 Kings 19, we see a downside in prophet Elijah’s personality-he was prone to depression. Some scholars have even gone so far as to say that Elijah probably struggled with bipolar disorder. His mood-swings could be so extreme that right after the euphoric victory over the false prophets of Baal at Mount Carmel, he plummeted down into having suicida tendencies. When he heard that Queen Jezebel wanted him dead, he became so depressed that he wanted to end his life (19:1-4). According to a recent American NIMH survey, up to 18 percent of the US population suffer from depression. More than 2 million, or one percent, struggle with bipolar disorder.

What was God’s remedy to Elijah? He got him to eat a cake baked by an angel. He then got him to drink, and then sleep (19:6-8). The cake speaks of the Word of God. In the treatment of depression, psychiatrists often talk about “reprogramming” or “re-framing” your thinking pattern. Really, there is no better tool for renewing one’s mind than God’s Word. As your thinking changes, your entire life will be turned around (Rom. 12:2).

The angel got Elijah to drink a jar of water. This speaks of the Holy Spirit. Jesus says, “If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink the Holy Spirit. Out of his heart will flow rivers of living water” (John 7:37-39). The Holy Spirit is always a tremendous lifter of a depressive mood.
The Lord then wanted Elijah to sleep. Proper management of your physical body is very important in dealing with depression. Elijah had worked very hard. He now needed some rest.
Next, Elijah met the Lord at Horeb, the mountain of God (1 Kin. 19:8). An encounter with God will heal any wounded, confused heart. God encouraged him, “Elijah, you are not alone, there are 7,000 good men like you in the land. And you are making a big difference” (19:18). In the presence of God, there is always love and encouragement to lift up a troubled soul.

Finally, God gave Elijah a new mission. God wanted Elijah to go and anoint a new king-Jehu the son of Nimshi. Also, God wanted Elijah to make a disciple out of Elisha (19:16-17). If you are feeling down, get a fresh vision from the Lord. Get up and do something productive. With God’s Word, the Holy Spirit, proper rest, a spiritual encounter with God, and a fresh vision for the kingdom, Elijah was lifted out of his depression. The same can happen to you.

God is so amazing, this is the word in season for me in my life. God is good.

2009-05-28T18:39:00.000+08:00

i just wanna scream out lout...cry out loud...who can accompany to a beach?haiz...God..deal with all these emotions of mine..heal my heart..

Touched!

2009-05-22T14:45:00.001+08:00

have been too busy to blog cause so busy at work..but just something that really touched..ytd i sprained my ankle when i miss din see a small curb on the pavement..then i fell..at first i thought it was nothing..it hurts at that moment but after that i was alright..this morning at 3am, i went to the toilet to find my leg very pain when i walk..this morning wake up, its a bit swollen..then walk with pain...but now its worse, i move my feet a bit only..its pain..valerie say she maybe can accompany me to the doc...haha...my cg in bishan and i plan to see sinseh there...she willing to travel...but everything not confirm but i thank God for a friend...cause i quite scared...last time i see sinseh i not scared...but i think today my leg really hurts and i have fear going to the sinseh...i really hope someone can accompany me..then i msg joanne to say i might be late for cg tonight as i plan to see a sinseh...i think she msg my member to acc me...Sze Wing msg where and wat time i going see sinseh..she accompany me..i din even tell her i injured my leg..so i guessed it must be Joanne...so sweet of her...thanks Joanne for you love, care & concern...Sze Wing..thanks for accompanying me..thank God for a friend to accompany me...

Upset!!

2009-05-14T08:41:00.002+08:00

since the last week of April, have been hanging out with valerie quite a while...its been really some time since we last went out or even met so often...we met with almost every other day...

we always to tot he coffeeshop near her place to drink and have lunch/dinner..have spent quite a sum on cab fare and not having enough sleep..still remember that night when she had her bbq, i only slept for 2 hrs then have to go church...was really tired...

yesterday she told me that i was always too busy and never have the time to meet her out until this 3 weeks, then we begin to meet often...the way she say it...i hear le i very upset...after i reach home...i called perrine and i cried...hope i din scare the gal...hee...ya...what she say is true that i have always been too busy...but for the past 1 month, a lot have happen and i really want to treasure the friends ard me and spent time with them...i always after work then go home and sleep at 8 plus...cause i always feel tired at work so need enough rest...but these few weeks, i have been sleeping at 1 or 2am...which is really hard for me, cause once i dun have enough rest, i will fall sick and i never like to take mc cause i cannot rest at home...not blaming anyone here, but i felt i have try to make an effort and when i heard what she say, i felt upset...it really hurts, haiz...

something i feel sad bout is we used to be quite close until she left church and i got more n more involved in church, having to go bs and meet members in the past...and now we are just normal friends i guess...her good friends are moon and huisi whom she always mention when i am with her...i have been thinking...i have a lot of friends...some are very close to me...but suddenly we aren't that close now...i meant those in church, understand they have rise up and move on, so their circle of friends change too...haiz..dunno what i saying le...will stop here..hope today will be a good day

Red Apple for Snow White

2009-05-11T15:40:00.001+08:00

Perrine aka snow white, dun say i din give u apple...haha...here is an apple for you, will give u a real one on sun...haha

1st weekend with N351

2009-05-11T11:32:00.001+08:00

Friday was my 1st cg meeting with N351,met Selena at Bishan MRT Station, I was late cause ended work late, by the time I reach, Sarah and Chrsitine was already there, Edward and the rest were late, when Selena ask where they are, Edward replied in Jerusalem,haha, they were still in orchard so the 4 of us head down to Trudy’s house first and saw Joanne along the way. Was a bit overwhelmed in the first cg cause a lot people, most of them with Chinese name, have a hard time remembering their names even till now. God, help me. I intro myself a bit in English a bit in Chinese, same goes for testimony, haha. The first few lines I share in Chinese then I switch back English. Haha, when I speak mandarin, I spoke really slow sia.hee. Joanne preach a very good word and I was once again reminded of my dream to be a missionary to China. We ended at 10pm, then we had our refreshments, haiz, going to put on weight.haha. My cg bought a gift for me, it’s a cup that have the word grace and peace if I din remember wrongly. Joanne announce on fri that for service ytd we would go for Chinese church.

Yesterday I met Selena 8am for breakfast then we waited for the shuttle bus to bring us to Chinese church, 1st time sleep till so late on a Sunday, haha. Ytd in Chinese church there was a special guest appearance, 陈孟奇 Tan Meng Qi Hagen. He is the one who sang the theme song for 大喜事, he also wrote the song for Guo Mei Mei – Bu Yao Pai, he wrote a song specially for his mum and sang to her on stage, his mum shared testimony of how they came to Christ, when Meng Qi sang the 世上只有妈妈好, tears flow down my eyes, its very touching. Pst Tan preach about the relationship series which we had in English service, ytd was the wrap up for the relatioship series in Chinese. After service, we went for fellowship, the members who turn up today was more than fri, wow, a hard time remembering their name. Haiz. Joanne knew that I seldom drink water de, so she bought honey for me, thanks Joanne, that is really nice of you.

Yesterday after fellowship I went to paya lebar to meet val and zhi yun to eat “smelly beancurd”, then we went this fast food call Arnold’s fried chicken at city plaza where zhi yun’s friend is working and he treat us, we were so full then I really force the food into my mouth, wanted to vomit, then we met val’s friend for a drink before heading back to cck to play badminton cause zhi yun wanted to play, I played for a while and I was really bad at it, val took over and they had a great time. I was sitting there listening to the songs played from val’s hp, I cried, then they asked me what happened, I just say nothing, a lot have happened and I just suddenly break down ytd, we stayed at the playground, I wanted to go home at 11.30 so I can take the last bus, then in the end we saw this very cute dog and play with her, she keep ignoring us, haha. In the end I went home at 12, already no money still need spent $$ on cab, haiz. Must guai guai go home next time then wun waste so much money le.

Went home chat with Perrine and she comforted me as I share with her. Thanks Gal for always being there

Last day in N317!

2009-05-06T16:31:00.005+08:00

Sat was my last cg in N317, I was really upset when I heard the news, though I was always jokingly told Minghui I was to transfer cg, I never once meant it. When I heard it for the first time, I cried. Last Monday was hard for me, as I was showering, I kept crying. I was really really tired, 9 yrs in church, Joanne is going to be my 9th cgl. It is not easy for me to share with leaders my past, esp those darkest moments. I begin to share with Minghui only 2 months ago and now I am changing cg. I shared with Minghui cause I knew I needed help in that area. I know that changes can be good, we can move on and grow even more, but I am just too tired. Tired of changing and changing and changing. Though I had change cg so many times, this time I cried the most.

Sat during cg, during worship, tears kept flowing down my cheeks, I could not control them. I am also fearful of going to Joanne’s cg, I dunno why but there is this fear in me. I will miss N317, though I am not very close with every member but we shared our sad and happy moments together. We laugh together, suan each other together, eat together, fellowship and shared with each other. We had come together as one, prayed together, fast together, play together, had fun together.

Minghui: for the times I have given u trouble, sorry for that. But you have been a great leader, one who is willing to lay down your life for the members. Thanks for not giving up on me and kept on believing in me, I would not have come back without you being so persistent. Thanks for always challenging me and reminding me my calling, even when I seem not to have the faith, you still had the faith and believe in me. Thanks for all the discipleship though not a lot, but they definitely are fierce, haha. Thanks for your love and time. We must continue to meet up to have jap food together ya, with ah lian and Belinda too.haha. Minghui, I will bring what I have learnt in N317 to my new cg, and be helping Joanne with the cg.

Gwen: Thanks for being my best friend in the cg, thanks for the times you lend me your ears to listen even though you are very tired. Thanks for all the fun, laughter we had together, thanks for believing in me too. Thanks for always been there when I need someone. I m so gonna miss you when I go over to the next cg. Must meet up often ya. Continue to help minghui in the cg and may you rise up as a cgl soon.

Aaron: thanks for always been so willing to serve and always willing to share with me what you go through, I hope I have given good advises that help you. Continue to grow in the Lord and help Lucas in the new cg ya, anything you can still call or drop me a msg. Thanks for always being more anxious than me finding a bf, haha. Dun worry, I am sure God will give me a good husband who can take care of me. And I am sure He will give you a new girlfriend too.

Hansheng: Will miss taking the train with you and hear you talking about your canoeing. Thanks for always encouraging me to run and exercise. Jia you in your walk with God ya and rise up to be a connect group leader soon.

Huiwen: Thanks for always being so encouraging and I enjoyed the times we chat over the phone though not a lot of times, but they were long calls. Hope to see you be a connect group leader soon ya, must help Minghui in the cg and continue to prepare good refreshments. You have always prepared refreshments without complaining even if last min no one can help you buy the food, and the times you always take pictures of yourself. Haha. Keep in touch.

Jane: even as you move on to Lucas cg, do help him out in the cg ya, continue to grow in the Lord and do even more things for Him, I have really seen you grow over the past 1.5 yrs, continue to do greater things for God

Jasmine: you are a strong gal, even got parental objection, you still insist on coming to church and having to go out so early on Sundays just to come for service and you always bring so many friends, I was really encouraged by what you did, jia you gal, and will be praying for your breakthrough

Ian: haven know you for long time but think you are a cute and nice guy, hope to see u more in church.hehe

Justine: even as you move on to Jared’s cg, continue to bring the DNA of N317 over, that is our noisiness and cheerfulness, you can continue to call me anytime you want. Haha, now our cg is on Friday, maybe we can go out on Saturdays together. Yeah. Continue to grow in the Lord and shine for Him in TP.

Valerie: my beloved daughter, haha, thanks for all the presents and the treats, you are always such a giving person, continue to grow in the Lord ya, must jia you in your walk with God and share with your new connect group leader or even Minghui, you can still call me ya, we still can pray together, go out together. Thanks for everything gal, for the friendship or should I say daughter-ship.haha. see you around more ya.

Vera: Hey gal, have also seen u grow for the past one yr, must take care ya. Hope to see u more around in church, will miss u so much

IN CONCLUSION, N317, I WILL MISS EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU, MINGHUI, THANKS FOR YOUR LOVE AND TIME AND EFFORT AND FAITH, I WILL DEFINITELY MISS YOU. DUN FORGET TO TELL ME WHEN YOU ARE HAVING A BABY YA, AND REMEMBER TO SAVE A DAY FOR ME TO CELEBRATE YOUR BDAY YA. I LOVE EVERYONE IN N317!

Have adjusted my mood to go over to N351, yesterday Selena met me up for dinner, it was really nice of her to sacrifice her time and meet me despite her busy schedule, she is really someone who is full of love for our members, she is willing to spent almost everyday to tutor our members. she is 26 this yr and Yong Wei is also older than me, finally i am in a cg with more people older than me, haha. Hmmm, we have a great chat yesterday and i was sharing with her bout the china friends i know recently-Jade, Natalie, Vivian, Free and April. we had a great time yesterday and it helps, when i go for cg on Fri, i wun feel so awkward. though there is still fear in me, but i going to put faith in God. Hope i will have a great time in my 1st meeting on friday. it is not that bad, that time when i go N317, i only know Minghui, but now going to N351, at least now i know Joanne, Trudy, Yong Wei, Moses. somemore Xiaolu and Joe are in my usher section. and now i know Selena, guess things wun be so bad when i go for the cg.hee

The 4 of us leaving using our figure to spell "N317"

Valerie(My daughter) & I

Jade and Natalie who specially came down for cg knowing its my last cg with N317

My beloved cgl and me

N317

Its still us

The 4 who are leaving with our beloved cgl

Huiwen gave us donuts and letters :)

Miss Understood and the Basket Bunch Miracle- A Fruit Parable

2009-04-27T16:10:00.000+08:00

Miss Understood watched from her spot on the window sill, as all the other fruit in the kitchen prepared for the Big Basket party. Every weekend, without fail, she watched this party get planned, shopped for, and then executed. And every weekend, she stood by, on the sidelines, in the widow sill, in her own designated spot, away from the other fruit of the kitchen, as they washed and shined themselves for the Big Basket event. Each weekend, she wondered what it would be like to be part of the Basket bunch. It looked like a good time. The other fruit always seemed so happy when they went to the Basket. And when they got there, and had themselves fully and beautifully arranged in the Basket, how lovely and perfect they all looked, each with their own unique gift, flavor and color ... causing the Basket to be a raging success. She could always hear them singing and whooping and having some sort of celebration, but she was too far away on the sill to really understand what was going on. All she knew is that it looked like a really great time.

She often thought of going, but always talked herself out of it. Miss Understood had seen what had become of other tomatoes who had tried going the whole Basket Party route, and it had not been pretty. Oh sure, the apples and the pears did fine there. The bananas and the oranges and the grapefruits. The pineapples and the lemons and the limes ... they all did well too. Even the plums, nectarines, peaches and grapes did okay, if they were careful. But her other tomato friends who had tried going to the party, had often been bruised, banged up, cut, and even bled out on the other fruit. Then they had been sent off to the cold place after that. Everyone knows that a tomato can only stay on the kitchen side of the cold place if they keep their skin in one piece. Once the thin skin that covers their succulent and juice-filled flesh is broken, the juice will seep out all over the other fruit causing an awful mess. Plus, what tomato girl in her right mind wants to be cut by other fruit just for trying to go the Basket? Not her, she firmly decided. No sir. She didn't care what marvelous things she might be missing out on at the Basket party. She would simply stay "home" on her window sill perch where she was safe with all the other tomatoes.

Besides, she knew that she was not even truly accepted among the other fruits as fruit. As far as they were all concerned she was a vegetable, and as such, had no place in the Basket. She could tell by the way they looked at her. Oh sure, some of the other fruits were friendly and said hello to her sometimes. And sure, they would even occasionally smile in her direction, but more often then not, as soon as they got where they thought she couldn't hear them, she heard them snicker and whisper under their breath with disapproving tones. She knew what they thought of her. She was a tomato. A vegetable. Not worthy of the fruit Basket party. She got it, alright. And she knew she wasn't worthy too. So what if she was truly a fruit, just like any of them? Wasn't she even classified as a vegetable by the Chefs and culinary Officials? She knew being a fruit wasn't enough. She had to be a certain KIND of fruit. The right kind. The sweet kind. The kind that was good served on cereal or with whipped cream. And she wasn't that kind of fruit. She didn't need them to tell her she looked, smelled, and tasted different than all of them.

She had come to accept it, and although it made her sad, Miss Understood knew that was just the way it was. Sometimes she and some of the other tomatoes were allowed to have their own little mini-basket parties, but it just wasn't the same as being included in the Main Basket on the Main
Table in the Main Dining Room.

But she knew she would have such a different kind of life if she could just figure out how to interact with the fruit of the Basket. She wanted so badly to try, but she was afraid. All she had ever known was how to be a tomato. How to be part of a salad, how to make a wickedly delicious sauce. How to spruce up a sandwich. And how to look beautiful, sitting alone, away from the other fruit, in the window sill, just doing her best to keep her skin all in one piece so she wouldn't be sent off to the cold place. And besides, everyone knows that tomatoes are supposed to stick together. Even at the market, while all the other fruit is displayed on a long bin, all in their own section, but sitting right next to each other, the tomatoes are off in another area ... alll by themselves, far, far away from all the other fruit. She supposed she should just give up on her dream of being included in the Big Basket. She was destined to be a tomato, and that was that.

Then one day, the most unusual thing begin to happen. It all started in the teeniest, tiniest way. She was sitting there on her window sill one day, when three peaches strolled over to her sill and said, "Hi. How are you today, Miss Understood? You're looking beautiful. We noticed that you looked a little lonely and sad, though, and thought we'd come and visit you. We know it's difficult for you to come to the basket where all the sharper fruits are, with their tougher skins and sometimes spiny exteriors, so we thought we'd just come hang out with you, here on the sill. Would you mind?" Miss Understood was tempted to be skeptical, but these gals looked different than the fruit she was used to dealing with. They were really looking at her, not through her. Their smiles seemed so warm and sincere. They truly seemed interested. And kind. Yes, really kind. And like they understood what her life as a tomato was like. She didn't know how they could know, but well ... she was thrilled! "Oh sure", she hopped over a bit so the peaches could sit with her, and they spent the afternoon talking and having a wonderful time sharing experiences together. It turned out that the peaches were more like her than she thought. Sure, they hung out in the Big Basket with the rest of the fruit, but she was surprised to find out that they had also been to some of the places she had been, such as Salsa, Sauce, and Preserves. Some of the peaches in their family had even been Canned, just like some of hers had. She'd had no idea! Wow.

After they were gone, she felt all warm on the inside, although she didn't really know why. She guessed it just felt good to be included and to feel like somebody cared about her. Miss Understood ... just a tomato ... just like she was. She liked it, she liked them, and she found herself hoping they would come back. And they did, the very next day ... and this time, they brought a plum with them. And the next time, a pear came along, too. And the next time after that, a whole bunch of grapes showed up, and then an orange, and a lime, and a banana ... till one day, as they sat partying together on the sill, she looked over to the basket and realized it was empty. Every fruit in the basket had come to where she was! They had brought the party to her! So she began telling all of her Miss Understood family and neighborhood about the great time they were having, and before too long they were all sharing and caring for one another right there on the sill. Then one day, the sill was too small to hold all of them, and they had to find a new place to hang out, so the other fruit invited her and all of her tomato gang back to the Main Dining Table to hang out with them at the Basket, and suddenly Miss Understood wasn't afraid of getting in the Basket with the other fruit. She knew now that they cared about her, and even though she bruised easily and her skin might break under other circumstances, she knew she would never have to worry about that with these fruits ever again. She had discovered a secret about them. They were not just any fruit, they called themselves Juiceefruit ... they were the fruit of the spirit. And, this made them very special. Over time, Miss Understood came to realize what this meant. It meant they would rather hurt themselves than hurt her. All they wanted was to help her feel loved, accepted and happy like they were. It meant that they were loving, joyful, full of peace, patient, kind, (yup, she had noticed the kindness the first day the peaches came to visit). They were so good, and visited her faithfully. They were so gentle with her. They wanted her to know that they now realized she was fruit just like them and they were sharing that news with all the other fruit they knew. So they had learned her secret, too. She was not a vegetable ... she was a tomato ... and more than that, they told her something she didn't know ... that the tomato was the biggest, juiciest, plumpest berry of the entire berry line. As far back as berries went, the tomato was the biggest ever. So big, that even the other berries hadn't known Miss Understood was a berry.

They all learned something else, too: The same Gardener had grown them all. Everyone of them! And The Gardner loved them all the same. She shared the news with her other tomato friends, and they shared it with theirs. She finally knew she had found a place she could still be herself, and yet enjoy being the fruit she was grown to be! True, she might be a tomato, different looking, different smelling and different tasting from the other fruits, but by God, she was still a fruit! She was sooo happy. Soon she begin to feel like she was a fruit of the spirit, too ... just like they were. And she was!

She had simply been a fruit who was Miss Understood.

Life is a gift!

2009-04-23T11:09:00.002+08:00

Today

Before

you say an unkind word

Think of someone who can’t speak.

Before
You complain about the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before
You complain about your husband / wife / Boyfriend/ Girlfriend

Think of someone who’s crying out to God for a companion

Before you complain about life

Think of someone who died too early on this earth in a tragedy car accident.

Before
You complain about your children
Think of someone who desires children but they’re barren.

Before
You argue about your dirty house someone din’t clean or sweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before
Whining about the distance you drive

think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.

Before

you think of pointing the finger or condemning another colleague/ friend/ love ones
Remember that not one of us is perfect.

when

You are tired and complain about your job
think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job. (Or at least have a job)

when
Depressing thoughts seem to get you down-
Put a smile on your face and think:
You’re alive and still around.

Seriously,
How bad can our circumstances get?
Or is it how negative can our mindset get sometimes?

Not feeling well!!

2009-04-21T13:10:00.000+08:00

have not been feeling well the past days...have fever in the night...then morning n noon keep sneezing, have flu and cough and sometimes headache...going to see the doc tonight...sianz...why i have this kind of weird father that i cannot just walk about in the house and stay home whole day...my manager ask me y din take mc..i say i mc also nowhere to rest...haiz...today whole day at work headache and no appetite to eat...

A tiring but fun weekend

2009-04-20T14:21:00.001+08:00

had a tiring but fun weekend...sat woke up at 7 cause meeting some others from the zone to plan for the games for "Go green" this coming sunday...we met at 8.45am at tiong bahru...Clara, Kenneth, Yan Ming, Joanne, Lucas, David, Minghui and Jared were there...its really tiring climbing the steps...so tired after a while and minghui kept asking y i so quiet...haha...too tired to talk le...hee...hmmm...then went for cg and had chocolate fondue...yummy...

ytd went to serve and was at door 6...stand all the way..makes my tired legs from sat even more tired...haha....after svc we had a get to know u better among the zone in conference room 4 and we played games till 3 plus and rest of the members went back..i waited at the station for Clara, Peilin and Kailin then we went causeway point to eat. We went to buy chocolates and i top up chocolates for my office...stressful week again so need the chocolates to de-stress...haha..clara bought 1 pack for me...then we ate pastamania and had a great time of fellowship...wow..then i realise peilin came only last yr end june and now she is already a connect group leader...kailin say she is her fav member...

today went to work to find a bar of chocolate on my table...my HR Manager clara gave it to me..so loved..so many chocolates...haha...and from diff clara...hee...hoping for a good week ahead :)

STRESS!!!

2009-04-15T16:52:00.000+08:00

So busy at work...i feel really really stress out...dun really have the time to walk...have to run...haha...so busy that we got to start work after having our lunch, no time to sit ard and chat...somemore a bit not feeling well...for the past 1 month, i think i only take the company transport in the evening for less than 5 days...have been doing a lot of ot...really tired...there are times when i just cannot wake up in the morning...how i wish i can just sleep in...had more rest last fri cause public holiday, went to church in the noon till night...

thank God that I brought a few friends this Easter...God is good, i invited 4 friends in the end 9 came...invited Mervyn and He brought his mum...invited Bernard and he brought his gf-sharon..invited Jade and Natalie and they brought Free, April and Vivian...its a breakthrough...cause after being a Christian forr 9 years...those friends i can invite i already invite before...most came before...its been yrs since i bring friends and its a breakthrough this easter...though only Mervyn and his mum respond to altar call...but i saw a few potential friends like Vivian and Sharon...

its been a tiring week that i fall asleep once i reach home..hardly have the time to call up them and pray for them...i just feel so stress now..stress of work...a bit stress of the activities coming up...but activities are good to keep the friends coming especially...God, i just want a good rest...a good massage...

Rights VS Responsibilities!

2009-04-08T09:04:00.002+08:00

We are responsible to God to become what God has made it possible for us to become.

Political groups and social organizations like to talk about the "rights" of their members. They want the full entitlement to the benefits that are rightfully theirs. Rights are all about "me, me, me."

That is not the attitude God wants us to have. He wants us to forget about our rights and focus on our responsibilities. He wants us fully engaged in helping others. Responbilities are all about "you, you, you."

God wouldn't be a very popular politician in our society. Most people want to be served and enjoy their priviledges. God calls us to be submissive and put the interests of others above our own. It is possible only if God can change our attitude. Are we willing to let Him?

Facebook, YouTube At Work Make Better Employees ?

2009-04-07T14:36:00.000+08:00

Caught Twittering or on Facebook at work? It'll make you a better employee, according to an Australian study that shows surfing the Internet for fun during office hours increases productivity.
The University of Melbourne study showed that people who use the Internet for personal reasons at work are about 9 percent more productive that those who do not.

Study author Brent Coker, from the department of management and marketing, said "workplace Internet leisure browsing," or WILB, helped to sharpened workers' concentration. "People need to zone out for a bit to get back their concentration," Coker said on the university's website

"Short and unobtrusive breaks, such as a quick surf of the Internet, enables the mind to rest itself, leading to a higher total net concentration for a days' work, and as a result, increased productivity," he said.

According to the study of 300 workers, 70 percent of people who use the Internet at work engage in WILB.

Among the most popular WILB activities are searching for information about products, reading online news sites, playing online games and watching videos on YouTube.

"Firms spend millions on software to block their employees from watching videos, using social networking sites or shopping online under the pretence that it costs millions in lost productivity," said Coker. "That's not always the case."

However, Coker said the study looked at people who browsed in moderation, or were on the Internet for less than 20 percent of their total time in the office.

"Those who behave with Internet addiction tendencies will have a lower productivity than those without," he said.

Loyalty!

2009-04-07T08:45:00.002+08:00

John 15:13
Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends.

There is a big difference between acquaintances and friends. Accquaintances are people that we know. They pop into our life (whether you want them to or not) as the result of our circumstances. So, we have acquaintances at work, in our neighbourhood, and at church. These are the people who may be very nice, but our relationship with them is defined more by contact than by commitment.

One characteristic that distinguishes acquaintances from friendship is loyalty. Friends are committed to each other. They are willing to make personal sacrifices for each other. They don't keep score of who owes a favor to whom. If you have true friends, then thank God for them. They are rare commodities. If you need to increase your friendship network and find a few, then start by being the king of friend you would want to have.

If not us, who?

2009-04-06T09:28:00.001+08:00

Trust God to direct the circumstances of your life even if you don't know what He's doing.

The Bible records an event in 479 B.C., when a beautiful Jewish woman named Esther became queen of Persia. It was no accident. God arranged the circumstances of her life in order to elevate her to a high position, and then He used her to save His people.

Whenever we are promoted to a higher position - whether it's in our job, in school, or in the cimmunity - we need to recognize that God has put us there for a reason. We may not know right away, but we have trust God that His timing is perfect, and we need to stay humble with the knowledge that He wants to use us to serve and influence others and glorify Him.

On Investments!

2009-04-05T09:22:00.000+08:00

Spend more of your time and energy investing in people that you do investing in things.

A good investment is determined by the safety of your capital and the rate of return. If you are going to put your money into something, you want to make sure that it won't be lost and you'll be paid a good dividend.

These same principles apply to the investment of our time and energy.Don't waste your valuable time with frivolous endeavors. Put your effort where it will count and pay off. You may receive the best return on your investment when you put time into other people. You can invest in them through acts of kindness and thoughtfulness. You aren't likely to see monetary returns on your investment, but you are guranteed spiritual rewards because your good deeds honor God Himself.

Don't just pretend that you love others.

Romans 12:10
Be kindly affectionate to one another with brotherly love, in honor giving preference to one another;

Keep Reading!

2009-04-04T09:18:00.000+08:00

Leaders are readers.

Everyone wants to follow a leader who is informed and wise, but nobody wants to follow a leader who is a know-it-all. There is a substantial distinction between the two types. Wise leaders know what they can learn from others. The know-it-alls think that there is nothing that others can add to their vast storehouse of knowledge.

Effective leaders are anxious to gain insights from other sources. This is usually means reading books and articles on the subjects that are relevant to their reponsibilities. The Bible is the best book for this purpose. It deals with the dynamics of personal relationships, and that is what leadership is all about.

If you are in a position of responsibility, make the Bible your leadership manual

Complements!

2009-04-03T08:41:00.001+08:00

Thoughtful compliments wear better than impulsive flaterry.

We are all wary of insincere friendships. So many people bring ulterior motives into a friendship. It is hard to know whether they are really interested in us as a friend, or whether they just want to get something from us or sell something to us. Skepticism is natural if the dinner party turns into a pitch for membership in a resort.

We can pave the way for meaningful friendships if we dispense with flattery. It is always shallow and usually transparent. It creates an atmosphere of insincerity in the relationship.

Make our convesation count. Learn to give compliments that are meaningful and appropriate. A legitimate, sincere compliement shows that we are aware and appreciative of someone else's effort. That is the stuff on which real friendships are built.

Finish what you start!

2009-04-02T08:30:00.002+08:00

People will be more impressed by what you finish than by what you start.

How we love to start stuff! We begin a project with energy as we envision the wonderful result. We enter into a new relationship with enthusiasm as we anticipate the rewarding experience. But sometimes the project bogs down or the relationship sours, and rather than taking things to their proper conclusion, we quit. (Of course we don't use the word "quit." We prefer to say we "lost interest.")

Jesus once told a parable about what it means to start something. Whatever it is, we need to see it through, or else we shouldn't start in the first place. The principle applies to material things and relationships, specially our relationship with God. Jesus was real blunt about this. God isn't something to sample and then discard when we lose interest. We are to take Him seriously and believe that when we begin our relationship with Him, we need to see it through.

So no matter how dry we may feel in our spiritual life now, hang on. Don't give up so easily cause God will never give up on us. Perservere on and run the race!

SOT 2007

2009-04-01T10:15:00.008+08:00

SOT 2009 just started this Monday, as I think back...its been 2 yrs since I graduated from SOT..it was really a life changing period for me...having to wake up early, go for SOT and rushing for work, then at night give tuition and do my assignments and having to wake up early the next day, as I think back, its really the supernatural strength from God that kept me going..

When I was in SOT, me and a few others always chiong to sit the 1st row, and because of this, i have make a number of overseas friends though there was 0 overseas student in my team...i remember i would always reach bout 7.30 and the gate would open at 7.45, me and another guy Kok Siang will run to pastor's lift and i would take the lfit, he would run down the stairs to get the 1st row seats...the others would come down by lift 4,5 or 6...to make it fair, we set a rule that no one can help book seats in the 1st row...that time we still dunno each other yet...i would always book myself and madeline a seat in the 1st row and i would book seats for the rest of my team mates at the 3rd row...

My 1st row friends

My 1st row buddies With Pst Yong (Dannon, Carinne, Magdeline,Pst Yong, Eric, Ailyn & me)

That day before we took this picture, Pst was teaching bout cultural mandate and we were told to dress our best, and so we did :)

On the 1st day Pst Ming told us about finding a need and meet it and a hurt to heal it, we might be wondering how to find a need and hurt when we dun really now anyone...then he shared with us there is a couple...they have rented a house in the central and find a day care there for their child...initially our lessons were supposed to be at riverwalk...but changed to jurong west a week before we started, so the couple got to find a room and a new day care, they found it but the child is having a hard time settling in the new day care...i was wondering who are they, what we know is only that they are overseas students, both parents are in SOT... i told myself even if i cannot help this couple, i want to find a need to meet and a hurt to heal...

during the 1st week, we were given our 1st assignment-think is the spirit filled book..dun really remember the full title, we were supposed to write 3 points on every chapter and the summary of the whole book...hmmm..i chiong my assignments cause i dun wanna drag it...neither do i want to hand in any late assignments...and i kept to that rule throughout SOT, the 4 months despite the busy schdule, God always gave me the strength and energy to finsh my assignments and bible reading on time...I finished the 1st assignment bout 2 weeks before the deadline and one day i was just sitting in the 1st row waiting for lessons to start...then i turn and talk to this lady, her name is Ailyn...and i discovered that she have to share the assignment book with her husband and they share 1 laptop..normally the husband will do the assignment when the wife is putting the child to sleep and the wife would do her assignment when the husband showers...i ask how can they finish their assignment on time, she told me she is not sure...at that time, i just say if she dun mind, she can borrow my laptop to do the assignment...can u imagine what great faith i have in God for Ailyn, i knew her barely for 5 mins and i m lending her my laptop which i bought less than a month...she kept thanking me and that is how our friendship starts, the next day i was thinking its a bit useless for me to hold on to the assignment book so i lend it to her as well, and both her n her husband submitted 1st their assignments on time..then i realised they were the couple Pst was mentioning on the 1st day..Ailyn and I became very good friends, but she sit the left side of the 1st row and i sit on the right side...Kok Siang would always sit in the middle...and a few others...i also made friends with 6 taiwanese students (Amy 姐，Chiu Chin 姐, maggie who is Pst Wayne's PA in taiwan, Wei lu, ah mao and another i forgot the name cause now din contact le) who always sit on the 2nd row, they are very nice people...remember once i was sick and i reach church like 8.35...i thought i need to sit behind but the taiwanese students have reserved a seat in the 1st row for me, knowing i was sick and i could not be so early that day...really touched..

Wei Lu & Me

Amy 姐，Chiu Chin 姐, Wei lu and Ailyn are the few overseas friends who was there, to pray for me, pray with me and be there for me...though we know each other for a short time, but it seems we know each other for a veyr long time, during my last month in SOT, i was having difficulty in paying my sch fees and Amy 姐，Chiu Chin 姐 blessed me S$50 each...

Amy 姐 & Me

Still remember there is 1 event was i was preparing for my preaching test, i got everything, the points and everything..but i dun have the opening verse for it...both Jin Lian and Jerb ask me to change my sermon, it was already bout 10pm that day, i have to preach at 2pm the next day...i din wan to write a new sermon again cause i was really tired...i din noe what to do and i call Amy 姐...i shared with her...normally a friend's reaction will be i pray for you or give advice right? her reply was go and sleep...i was like huh..then she ask me even if i think till 2am...can i get the verse...i say maybe not...then she told me i need have enough rest cause next day still got lesson and i would need the energy, i would not be able to perform my best when preaching if i dun have enough rest...then she say she pray for me...that night when she pray for me...by hearing her prayer...i know she had been praying for me in her daily quiet time...can feel it and i was really touched...i had a good night rest that day...and the next day...6 hrs aways from my preaching test...i still dun have the verse...during worship, this particular verse kept coming to my mind, i check it up when we sat down...and the verse match every point that i had written down for the sermon...Praise God...

Last year when i left church for a while, when these overseas friends of mine know, they pray for me, called me and was there for me...its been 2 yrs and we have been in contact...esp with Ailyn, she just gave birth...I hope i can visit her soon in Sitiawan...I really miss her, Eric and Kayla...Kayla is such a sweet gal...for those who know me, they will know i have this scar on my hand, i always scratch it and thus the scar, till now haven recover, that time kayla in the train told me this "Serene jie jie, dun scratch" and she was only 1 or 2 yrs old...i think...she is a sweet gal...

Kayla & Me

Declare your Dependence!

2009-04-01T08:57:00.002+08:00

Psalm 19:1
The heavens declare the glory of God; And the firmament shows His handiwork.

The Declaration of Independence happened long before 1776. In fact, humankind declared its independence from God in the Garden of Eden when Adam and Eve believed the lie that they could live independent of God. Since then, we humans have been constantly struggling to do it our way.

God knows that true independence is impossible. There's no way we can function effectively if we are cut off from his His help. We are like branches in a vineyard. Once cut off, we die. Jesus is the true vine (John 15:1), and unless we are connected to Him, we will never truly be productive. And our so-called independence won't lead to freedom but to our own destruction.

John 15:4
Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me.

Appointments to keep!

2009-03-31T08:31:00.002+08:00

Exodus 16:7
And in the morning you shall see the glory of the LORD; for He hears your complaints against the LORD. But what are we, that you complain against us?”

We all carry appointment calendars. Some of us have day planners. A few even have assistants to help them sort out their appointments and tasks. Why all the fuss? So we can stay on task and keep our appointments. We don't want to miss out on anything or anyone that would help improve our lives. Neither do we want to disppoint anybody who wants to meet with us.

That said, does it seem like a good idea to put God at the top of our appointment list? Of course it does. He's the most important person in the world to us, and His plans for us are the most important tasks. Seek God and what He wants for us every day, and to help us remember, put His name in your appointment book. That's one daily meeting you don't want to miss.

This week is the best chance, let us make an appointment with God in the daily morning/evening prayer meetings. :)

Settle for Best!

2009-03-30T08:58:00.003+08:00

When you feel like settling for less than the best, think about what God wants for you.

There will come a day when we realize that God wants more for us than we could possibly want for ourselves. Maybe we've come to that day already, but if not, here's what will happen. As we focus on God daily by reading His word and talking with Him through prayer, we are going to gain a greater appreciation for who God is and what His will is for us each day. We will recall what God has done in every detail of our life as we eagerly learn how God wants to build our character and use us to impact the lives of others.

At that point we will realize that God doesn't just want us to "get by" each day. He wants us to live our life fully here on earth while we anticipate the amazing life waiting for us in heaven.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Avoiding Temptation!

2009-03-29T20:44:00.000+08:00

You are less likely to fall into temptation if you don't walk along the edge.

We all struggle with temptation. When we yield to it, we usually blame it on our weakness. But it's not always a matter of weakness. Sometimes it is just a matter of plain stupidity. We stupidly put ourselves in the path of temptation when we could have avoided it altogether.

Start being smart about resisting temptaion. If you know that you are having difficulty with a particular sin, then arrange the circumstances of your life so that you aren't confronted with the temptation as often. Decide ahead of time what you won't do, where you won't go, and what you won't watch. You might even have to disassociate with a few "friends" who are leading you into trouble.

The hardest time to resist temptation is when we are knee-deep in it. It's just a lot easier to stay away from it to begin with.

James 4:7
Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.

Start the Ignition!

2009-03-28T09:03:00.002+08:00

The next time you feel weak in the knees, try using them to pray.

Prayer is a powerful tool because it activates the power of God in your life. God is always with us through the presence of the Holy Spirit, but He won't unleash His power unless we ask Him to, and the way we ask is through prayer (John 16:24). Think if our life as a car (We choose what kind of car we want to be). God is the engine that powers us, and the Holy Spirit is the fuel. But unless we turn on the ignition by praying, we are going to sit there, nice to look at, but going nowhere. Prayer is like the spark that ignites the Holy Spirit to drive God's power.

Oh, and there's one more aspect to our illustration. We'll need a road map to tell us where we need to go. That would be the Bible - God's personal atlas for our life. Don't leave home without it.

Divine Design!

2009-03-27T08:31:00.002+08:00

Don't make plans and then ask for the Lord's approval. Ask God to direct your planning.

Teenagers quickly learn that it is easier to ask forgiveness than to ask permission. If they ask for permission first, their request may be denied. So they go ahead and do what they want, and they are later prepared to say: "I am sorry. I didn't know I shouldn't have done that."

If we are honest with ourselves, we often take the same approach with god. We make our own plans for what we want, and we leave God totally out of the planning process. After all of the choices have been made, then we involve God by asking Him to "bless" what we have already decided to do.

Don't treat God like a magic wand that we wave over our plans. Involve Him in the decisions of our life at the very beginning. Let Him direct you (instead of the other way round).

Get on the plane!

2009-03-26T09:13:00.002+08:00

Its' one thing to have faith and another matter entirely to act on your faith.

Our faith becomes meaningful to us and effective for our salvation only when we have faith in God. But what if we never act on that faith? How meaningful and effective is it then? Look at it this way. Lets's say we made a reservation to fly to Hawaii. When the day for our flight arrives, we drive to the airport, check in, and walk to our gate. But rather than taking our seat on the plane, we sit in the airport and watch the plane take off. Then we turn to some guy next to us and say, "Hey, you see that plane? I have a reservation for that flight. My reservation is going to Hawaii."

Our faith in God is like that reservation to Hawaii. Just as we fulfill our reservation to Hawaii by getting on the plance, we fulfill our faith in God by getting with His plan. (Eph 2:10).

Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead. (James 2:17)

Personality Test

2009-03-25T10:17:00.002+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education: You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

took this personality test from Vera's blog!
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Integrity!

2009-03-25T09:27:00.002+08:00

If you expand the truth, your credibility contracts.

We know we shouldn't lie, but there are circumstances in life when the truth may seem irrelevant. Is absolute honesty required at all times? Are we obligated to limit our promises to the ones we actually intend to keep? Must we restrict our comments to those that are entirely truthful?

The culture in Jesus' time was so accustomed to making false statements that people would often "swear" to be telling the truth. They assumed that taking an oath of honesty would give greater credibility to their statements. Jesus...taught that integrity and truth have only one level (Matt 5:33-37).

Our word should be enough. Jesus wants our words to be truthful in every conversation. Honesty, integrity, and truthfulness should be more than mere concepts for us. God wants us to put them into practice, and He wants them to be defining characteristics of our life.

Handling the different people in work!

2009-03-24T11:41:00.000+08:00

Have been always quite afraid of this particular manager in my office cause he is in operations de so he talk louder...then today he intercom up to say why his surveyor no camera, saying why i no spare camera, i told him the spare camera is in the repair centre and i have chasse the people there...he talk quite loud so i still quite scared of him...but later he came up to explain he always check the works of his surveyors...got 1 surveyor is slower so he questioned him, the surveyor say cause he no camera, pushing blame to us, then the manager say he believe maybe the surveyor is slower but by saying he no camera, the manager cannot corner him in questioning, he explain it in a very nice tone and softer...sometimes i guess its just our own mind, he might not be that scary after all, i saw the fun side of him before...hee....

Sorrow!

2009-03-24T09:27:00.003+08:00

When God gives us forgiveness, Satan gives us guilt.

There is a fine line between sorrow and guilt. Both emotions can spring from doing something wrong. But the consequences of these 2 emotions cn be drastically different.

God wants us to be sorry when we have done something wrong. Sincere sorrow is part of the process of repentance. It means we regret what we have done and don't want to do it again. With this type of attitude, God can turn our life around and get us back on the right track.

Satan, on the other handm wants us to fo far beyond sorrow. He wants us to feel guilty, and he uses gulit as an oppresive emotion. It will make our conscience heavy and our focus introspective. Guilt ignores the very reason why Jesus died for us: Forgiveness.

The next time we regret our actions, thank God. Our sorrow is a sign that Jesus is alive and active in our life.

Love before First Sight!

2009-03-23T09:38:00.002+08:00

God loved us long before we loved Him.

Hollywood movie producers know that the romantic notion of "love at first sight" makes for a good love story. In real life, however, it is nothing more than "attraction at first sight." Real love requires knowing a person.

God didn't love us at first sight, because He actually loved us long before we were bron. In fact, He loved us before He created the world. Since before the beginning of time, God knew all about us. He has known all along the kind of person we would be. Even though He has known forever all of our weaknesses He has loved us from then until now.

Don't ever think that God loves us because we have decided to love Him. Our love definitely pleases Him, but He is not reciprocating our affection. God has been loving us and awaiting our affection throughout history. That is what a love story should be.

God's Whisper!

2009-03-22T23:32:00.000+08:00

If you are not hearing the voice of God,
your life may be too busy.

People often wonder if God ever speaks in a voice we can hear. Absolutely. There are times when God speaks through other people in order to tell us something. And sometimes God will speak directly to us. So how do we listen to the voice of God?

If we want to hear God's voice, the first thing we need to be is quiet. God won't shout above the cacophony of our lives. As the prophet Elijah discovered, God comes quietly whn we least expect Him. God told Elijah to meet Him "on the mountain' (1 Kings 19:11). As Elijah waited, there was a mighty windstorm, an earthquake, and a fire, but the Lord wasn't in any of those. He came to Elijah in " a gentle whisper."

God will come to us in a gentle whisper,too - in our thoughts and in our heart. But we'll never hear God's voice unless we turn off the noise.

Our Family!

2009-03-21T09:26:00.000+08:00

1 John 4:7
Beloved, let us love one another, for love is of God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God.

Hospitality is often defined as the display of thoughtfulness to strangers and guests. But having guests over the dinner is only part of the hospitality - the easy part. The more challenging aspect of hospitality happens after the door shuts when the visitors leave: Can our family treat each other with the same attention and respect that is reserved for special visitors?

We are often more kind to strangers and friends than we are to the members of our family. The "outsiders" get the best part of us, while the people in our own household get the worse part of us. There's an old saying that goes, "Familarity breeds contempt," but it doesn't have to be true just because it is old.

Here is another old saying:"I command you to love each other" (John 15:17) When Jesus said these words, He didn't exclude those with whom we share a bathroom and a refrigerator.

Grab the Towel!

2009-03-20T11:39:00.003+08:00

Be more concerned about the task to be performed by you than the title to be conferred upon you.

Remember the story of Jesus washing the feet of the disciples! (John 13:1-11) It was the custom to wash the feet of guests who had been traveling on the dusty road. The disciples weren't doing the job, so Jesus got busy and did the task Himself. What makes this incident so ironic is that the disciples had been arguing earlier about which of them was to be the "greatest" in God's Kingdom. While they were worried about a title, Jesus grabbed the towel.

We can't be too critical of the disciples, because we make the same mistake. We are so anxious to be important, to be noticed, and to have prestige. We are thinking so much about our own image that we overlook the needs of others.

Let Jesus be our example. Forget about our own self-importance and focus on the needs of others. Be looking for ways that we can be helpful!

Do what is Good!

2009-03-19T12:07:00.002+08:00

Motivation can fade.
Habits prevail.

Every now and then, we need to hear a great motivational sermon. It can really recharge out spiritual batteries. But we must avoid becoming a motivational junkie - the kind of person who has to be hyped up emotionally before they can keep on going. If we become dependent on motivational sermons, we will fail miserably in our spiritual life. (We will get weary of the emotional roller coaster. And after a while, all of the sermons will sound the same.)

Instead of depending on someone else to fire us up, get busy helping others. Do it regularly. Make it a part of our life. When "doing good" for others is a habit in our life, then we will find that it happens regardless of our emotions. We will find that we are doing these things because they are rewarding (not just because some eloquent speaker psyched us into it).

Happy!!!

2009-03-18T10:47:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went out with Yolanda and Germaine to have prata...yummy...i had a plaster prata and a cheese egg mushroom prata...then we talk bout SOT...yo is going to SOT this year...so i begin to talk bout my experience..How God have brought me through...

i remember my batch start from Mid April to End Aug...for the Aug sch fees, i had no money to pay for it...but neverthelss i treated my good friend-Ailyn breakfast cause it was her birthday...that day itself, my taiwan classmates...both of them bless me with $50 each..then i manage to find a tuition assignment that pays me $100 per month, and i manage to come up with the remaining $100 for my sch fees, not only that, my team mate bless me to go for a mission trip in batam...yeah...there are lots of expereiences to share...like how i was so afraid bout preaching before going but i preach a total of 5 times...got quite good grades for my test and assignment having to juggle with tuition, work and SOT...and having to sit in the 1st row everyday is the greatest challenge and as a result, i made a of new friends, esp international...my team do not have a single international student...but at the end of the term...i know a total of 2 Indonesians, 3-4 Malaysian, 2 from China and 7 of them from Taiwan, 1 from Japan and other singpore students who chiong 1st row together...evern overnight prayer meet we are sitting in the 1st row, that was the ultimate...haha...

ytd when i reach home, i called Ailyn, she was in the hospital, she was supposed to give birth to her son on 8/03/2009 but the son din come out...haha...so the doctor gave 10 days, which is today, they will give Ailyn an injection and hopefully the son will be birthed, she say she does not feel like he is coming anytime...ya...dunno the exect terms to use...hee...hmmm...hope kai en (The name the parent have given) will be born today :)

Keep the Truth Together!

2009-03-18T10:10:00.001+08:00

Proverbs 10:9
He who walks with integrity walks securely,
But he who perverts his ways will become known.

Telling the truth has become a lost art. Its not that we are out there telling lies (although there is plenty of that going on). We are just not telling "the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth." We sort of sneak up on the truth, circle the truth, tell part of the truth, but don't come right out and tell the whole truth. We give out just enough information to keep us out of trouble, but not enough to honor God.

When God asks us to be truthful, He isn't suggesting that we pick out the parts that make us look good. He wants us to deal in the whole truth. That's what it means to have integrity: to be "whole." If you want to be a person of integrity, don't break the truth into pieces. Keep it together, even if it invites criticism.

Little is much if God is in it!

2009-03-17T08:36:00.002+08:00

Zechariah 4:10
For who has despised the day of small things?
For these seven rejoice to see
The plumb line in the hand of Zerubbabel.
They are the eyes of the LORD,
Which scan to and fro throughout the whole earth.”

Many people treat the small stuff in life as if no one - not even God - has any control over what happens. We call it "fate" or talk about how we are "lunky" or "fortunate" when certain things happen or don't happen.

If we are like most people who only tend to ask for God's involvement only in times of major need or crisis, consequently we miss out on the joy and wonder of watching God work in the small stuff of our life. There is no question God is in the big events, but He delights in working in the details.

Put our faith to work!

2009-03-16T08:56:00.002+08:00

Action Steps We can Take to Believe God:

Cultivate a adesire to believe God.

Submit our will to God.

Be a pioneer for God.

Start a new work for God.

Action Steps We can Take to Activate our Faith:

Become a person of faith.

Activate our faith by reading the word of God.

Walk by faith in every aspect of our life.

Make faith a way of life.

Action Steps to Build Faith That Overcomes the Enemy:

Put on the full armor of God.

Take up the sheild of faith.

Believe God.

Apprehend God's kind of faith.

Action Steps We can Take to Unleash Our Potential in Faith:

Believe the law of faith.

Speak to the mountain in our way.

Don't lose heart.

Speak our faith.

Learn to expect God to move.

Action Steps We can Take to Exercise Faith to Move the Hand of God:

Engage our faith to see God move.

Believe God's word.

Profess our faith.

Believe the hope that comes from God.

Action Steps To Take to Activate Faith that Brings Victory:

Don't give up before we start.

Keep our eyes focused on the promises of God.

Praise God in all situatuions, no matter how bleak they may seem.

Believe God.

Action Steps To Activate Faith that Shatters Disappointment:

Recogmize that this is not the final situation.

Forget the past.

Reach out for what is before us.

Keep moving forward.

Press toward the mark.

Keep our eyes on the prize.

saving a little here n there

2009-03-14T12:12:00.002+08:00

recently i saved up quite a bit on my hp bil..cause i sms alot...my normal sms per month would be 1000-1200...so recently have been using the internet to sms my friends instead...it save quite a bit...at least now per month, i sms bout 600-700...it can be quite troublesome but i hope i can maintain this....i din noe m1 have this service until today...but its a hassle to have to remember what service your friends are using...but now i roughly know...those whom i always sms...but another thing is there is a limit to send the sms...

singtel - 20 to per same number...
Starhub-no limit i think, but must refresh the page and sign in again...
M1 - 20 to per same number...

sms to singtel user - http://sms.singtel.com/internetsms/

sms to starhub user -http://websms.starhub.com/websmsn/usr/createMsgSessionPageShow.do?method=initCreateSession

sms to m1 user(sign is as guest) - http://msgctr.m1.com.sg/MessageCentre/jsp/index.jsp but for this the m1 user have to subscribe to it...just found out today so haven figure how to exactly use it

Something to share!

2009-03-14T10:01:00.003+08:00

Revelation of Phil 3:13-14

2009-03-13T09:36:00.006+08:00

With the help of other reference book and the Holy Spirit, here is a littel revelation I received..

Phil 3:13-14

13 Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, 14 I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

I do not count myself to have apprehended
Paul knew that he had not apprehended the final situation. He did not consider any situation as the end; it was not finished for Paul.
When faced with a crisis, it's human nature to think we are finished, that it's the end and we can't do anything about it. We put finality to something that is not final. When we face a challenge, remember, there is always tomorrow.
The devil is most afraid of our momentum. He is less concerned about the individual victories that we may have than a life of victory. Satan is concerned when we keep going after him, building one victory on top of another. He knows that when we get the momentum going, we'll roll him flat.
The problem is that when we hit Satan, we lay down. We hit him, and then we lay down. We don't build momentum by going from strength to strength. God calls us to be an overcomer and momentum is a vital tool in gaining the total victory. Never be afraid of getting up when we fall and don't let disappointment to get into our heart.

but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind
Let go of those things that are in the past and forget what's behind us. If we live in the past we'll never have a future. The future is in front of us, so Paul says to forget those things that are behind.
Disappointments will bind us up if we live in yesterday. We must do some forgetting because disppointments prevent faith from rising up inside of us.
Remembering the past takes us away from the miracle that God wants to give us today. This is a new day. God can do it for us today.Ler go of the past.

forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead
When we reach forth, we are reaching forward to those things that are before. When we stretch ourselves to reach for those things that are behind, we are kept in a rhythm of disppointment that eats up what little faith we have. we must reach forward to the things that are before, things that we have not yet
- reached
- gotten
- happened
Reaching for the things that are before, not the things that already exit activates faith. That's how we stay free from disappointment and have the tree of life come alive inside of us. Reach for the things that have not yet happened. If we cannot see it, it doesn't mean that it is not there.

I press toward the goal
We must press on in assertive and deliberate action. Pressing on means using force and pressing forward again. Keep going forward, and don't fo backward.
Ofteh when disppointment comes, people go backward in retreat. However, when we face a challenge or difficulty, God wants us to press onward. Keep moving forward!
If we have a need in our life, it's time to go forward and press on to victory. Victory is never behind us; it's always before us. Paul refused to look back and we must do the same. Press on.

I press toward the goal
Paul had a goal or standard which he moved. It was not a standard set by himself or any other man. It was a standard set by God. He kept his eyes on God's standards.
Any standard we set will bring disappointment. We must keep our eyes on God and His standard. Pursue whatever God has shown us earnestly and with dilligence.
We must press on toward the goal. The goal toward which Paul pressed on was Heaven, that's why he could never be disppointed. Remember what Paul said "For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain" (Phil 1:21).
Regarding the world as our home will always cause dissatisfaction with life. Paul's motto was, in essence, "You can take everything away from me, even my own life. When I see Christ it is gain to me." Keep pressing on toward the goal.

the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus
Paul pressed toward the mark of his callling in Christ Jesus. He kept his eyes on the prize, what he would get when he crossed the finish line and the tape was broken.
Do we serve ambition, the things of this world, our career, denominations, organiztions, positions, or do we serve God. Imagine what we would be like if we kept our eyes firmly fixed on the calling God has placed in us - the call to heaven.
Fear is replaced by determination, procrastination is replaced by action, and timidity is replaced by fearlessness. When God take hold of our life so that our hear burns for Christ and Christ alone, there will be no difference between the first century church and the twenty-first century church.
God has set His hand to use His church mightily in these last days. God is pouring out His Spirit around the world and igniting Christians with passion and zeal like that of the first century church. Signs, wonders, and miracles are becoming more and more common as God manifests His power and presence. Take hold of God today. We are a vital link in His plan for the world to know Christ.

Taken From Pst Kong's blog

2009-03-11T09:15:00.001+08:00

Common Sense for 2009
March 10, 2009

The Bible says in Prov. 4:7, that “in all our getting, get understanding,” which is really nothing more than “anointed common sense.” I came across a piece of advice Warren Buffet gave to his shareholders for 2009. I was amazed by the simplicity and common sense found in his approach toward basic management of money. This is what Buffet said:

“We begin this New Year with dampened enthusiasm and dented optimism. Our happiness is diluted and our peace is threatened by the financial illness that has infected our families, organizations and nations.

Everyone is desperate to find a remedy that will cure their financial illness and help them recover their financial health. They expect the financial experts to provide them with remedies, forgetting the fact that it is these experts who created this financial mess.

Every new year, I adopt a couple of old maxims as my beacons to guide my future. This self-prescribed therapy has ensured that with each passing year, I grow wiser and not older. This year, I invite you to tap into the financial wisdom of our elders along with me, and become financially wiser.

* Hard work: All hard work bring a profit, but mere talk leads only to poverty.

* Laziness: A sleeping lobster is carried away by the water current.

* Earnings: Never depend on a single source of income. [At least make your investments get you second earning.]

* Spending: If you buy things you don’t need, you’ll soon sell things you need.

* Savings: Don’t save what is left after spending; spend what is left after saving.

* Borrowings: The borrower becomes the lender’s slave.

* Accounting: It’s no use carrying an umbrella, if your shoes are leaking.

* Auditing: Beware of little expenses; a small leak can sink a large ship.

* Risk-taking: Never test the depth of the river with both feet. [Have an alternate plan ready.]

* Investment: Don’t put all your eggs in one basket.

I’m certain that those who have already been practicing these principles remain financially healthy. I’m equally confident that those who resolve to start practicing these principles will quickly regain their financial health.”

There is truly no short-cut to success. We all need to remind ourselves of these back-to-basic principles of life, wisdom and common sense.

Ex W20 Outing

2009-03-10T09:13:00.003+08:00

Ex W20:Myself,Caijun,Belinda(cgl),Suting,Bernice & Aileen with our trademark...haha...w20 members will know what i meant

We played Animal games, and these are our actions: Goldfish, Panda & Crocodile

Fruitful weekend and Ex W20 gathering

2009-03-09T10:16:00.005+08:00

Over the weekend have been eating and eating...oh no..my diet plan...sob sob...sat noon met Hope up for lunch at City Hall, we had SHOKUDO...we met up to have an early celebration for her bday which falls on 11/03 on wednesday, so i decide to ask her out and give her a good treat...it was a good quality time spend and had a great time catching up...Hope was sharing with me about her helicoptor flight and how excited her boyfriend was...haha...Hope is one of the mentors i have in the early days in usher...though she was never my IC, but she cared and loved me more than my team IC, she taught me things, scolded when its necessary but love and care when i needed it :)I have known her for about 4 or 5 yrs le bah...its been long...thanks sis for always been there...

After lunch i went for cg, thought i was late and wanted to walk to Minghui's place but in the end some members were later so i waited for them at interchange, when i reached, i only saw huiwen there and she was eating a bread, when she saw the cookies i taking which is meant for refreshments, she ask whether she can eat it...haha...2 times i take the cookies 2 times she ask same qns...hee...CG msg was really good, bout being kind to people...after cg,we had refreshments, after which we play Wii...wah...a bit tiring sia and minghui ask wanna go for dinner, i say ok then she say she want go eat the steamboat buffet, i told her to give me another hr cause my refreshments and lunch haven digest...haha...then we played Wii for another hr before helping her sweep and mop the floor...i dunno how to mop the floor so i sweep...hee...then we went for the dinner...eat untill i m so full, reach home at 11 plus...

yesterday woke up at 6.45 to give minghui morning call and get ready to go to church to book seats...Aaron and Louis suppose to book seats together but Aaron is late and Louis did not come church due to stomachache...but God is good, valerie came church together and we book seats..and cause minghui have a stomachache so she cannot give Justine BS and Jusitne also book seats together...hee...the sermon was good...Man+ woman in hebrew = yah (God in the land of the Living)...went to serve dialect church with valerie until 7pm...tired sia...stand all the way...

anyway as we sow, we will really reap, was quite tied financially but decide to bless gwen with this pencil case from Wallet shop on sat cause i remembered her mentioning of getting a new pencil case when we shop ard in jurong point...ytd before prayer meeting, valerie went attributes and bless me with the light of the city cd..thanks valerie, i really like the cd...its been long since i last have a christian cd...hee

went to meet up with ex w2o for a gathering...they met at 6.30pm, i reached at bout 8 ...by the time i reach they finishing their food le, Bernice, Suting, Belinda, Caijun and Aileen were there...we went to Dennis Cafe at tanjong pagar..I had marinara pasta, the pasta cannot make it sia..we had dinner and suan each other and disturb...haha...talking bout all the past when we used to disturb belinda...actually ya...belind is such a nice leader but we took her for granted...when we 1st came, all of us are still in our uniforms...but yesterday all of us are either working or in uni...how we have grown up...caijun kept disturbing me as usual...yesterday belinda and i was the target...we began to talk bout the worship song we always sing...and during building fund sure sing this song...

THERE'S A LONGING IN OUR HEARTS
TO BUILD YOUR CHURCH, O LORD
WE GATHER ALL WE HAVE
AND DO WHAT WE CAN

THERE'S A VISION IN OUR HEARTS
TO SEE THE HARVEST, LORD
UNITED HAND IN HAND
WE WANT REVIVAL IN THE LAND

REMEMBER US, AS WE GIVE TO YOU
REMEMBER US, WE SACRIFICE TO YOU
REMEMBER US, HOLY ONE EVER TRUE
A MEMORIAL PRAYER
WE OFFER UNTO YOU

Dun really remember how to sing this song but i remembered the ones in blue font, i still remember i will cry as i hold the envelope in my hand whenever i sing this song...we sang a bit of the old worship songs we used to sing bout 6-7 yrs ago...haha...its really a nice time together though they keep suaning me...ya...only they will call me lao ser and sa bao...haha...i laugh so hard that my tummy hurts sia...playing animal game in the cafe an belinda was still as blur...haha..she used to lead this game and kena forfeit...ytd we play, she still the one...but we din have forfeit...haha...

N317..imagine we have a gathering after 10 yrs...what it would be?laughing at the things we are doing now...haha...planning to have a ex n256 gathering too...hee...will upload photos once i receive them :)

Let Go of the Past and Start Living For Today

2009-03-03T15:32:00.007+08:00

How many Christians, do you think, are still hanging onto wounds of the past? But how can we be Christians when we have not given up the past life of who we once were? Don’t we have to be reborn a new person to become a Christian? That’s what the bible tells us.

So my brothers, you also died to the law through the body of Christ, that you might belong to another, to him who was raised from the dead, in order that we might bear fruit to God. Romans 7:8

Some Christians still have battle scars from the past that have never gone away. When we keep the hurt within our attitude we keep chipping away at it every single day and it never heals. We can’t seem to let the past go – we want to keep bringing up the hurt and it keeps us from truly acknowledging Christ for our life. We shouldn’t allow our past to determine our future.

The truth is if we want a happy and fulfilled life we need to give up the past and allow God to bring in today. But today will never come if we keep wallowing in what was. What was is something that hurt us deeply but is now dead and buried. If you are alive in Christ you can’t bring what is dead with you –you must leave it behind where it belongs or either stay buried with it.

Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. Matthew 11:28-29

Sometimes it can be difficult to let go of the emotional pangs of the past, but without moving away from those past pangs, we remain stunted spiritually, emotionally, and mentally. How can we move on if mentally were still hurting? How can we move on if emotionally we don’t know what we want or need? How can we move on if spiritually we are lost?

Examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith; test yourselves. Do you not realize that Christ Jesus is in you – unless, of course, you fail the test? II Corinthians 13:5

Let the past go! Say, “Bye, bye past life, hello new life!” Let your mind be renewed with Christ’s Spirit and be transformed. God wants you to be created a new person in Him. Let go of the old self so the new self can be ushered in. God heals our wounds when we truly let Him into our hearts and minds and allow Him to take over in our life.

To be made new in the attitude of your minds, and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness. Ephesians 4:23

Let’s start living for today! Did you know when we are harboring hurt we let our past decide what we will do with today? We really do! Do you think God is happy with how we are living our life? God does not want us to be unhappy, always guarding ourselves from being hurt again. If we are afraid to love others, and to give of ourselves, then we will never be happy in this life. Only when we decide to let go of the past will we be able to live to our potential in the Lord. Put your trust in God.

He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall, but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:29-31

If we are depressed, lonely, angry, addicted, or living our life in bitterness then these things are controlling who we are in Christ. They literally keep us from becoming the person that God created us to be. These things are the symptoms of a pain we won’t give up, and it is how we allow the past to dictate our life today. We ease the hurt through these temporary vices and emotions and remain in our own little world where no one else can come in and hurt us ever again.

But the truth is without God we are more vulnerable to these vises. The big bad Spirit likes to keep us living in our sins, depressions and addictions, that way we can’t mature spiritually and accept Jesus Christ as our personal Savior. They keep us from having a relationship with Jesus! As long we remain spiritually stunted we won’t find salvation because we are literally starving for spiritual insight and wisdom. This is what living in our past does to us. We must let go of the past and start living for today!

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27

WHEN THE MUSIC FADES
ALL IS STRIPPED AWAY
AND I SIMPLY COME
LONGING JUST TO BRING
SOMETHING THAT'S OF WORTH
THAT WILL BLESS YOUR HEART

I'LL BRING YOU MORE THAN A SONG
FOR A SONG IN ITSELF
IS NOT WHAT YOU HAVE REQUIRED
YOU SEARCH MUCH DEEPER WITHIN
THROUGH THE WAY THINGS APPEAR
YOU'RE LOOKING INTO MY HEART

I'M COMING BACK TO THE HEART OF WORSHIP
AND IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU
IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU JESUS
I'M SORRY LORD FOR THE THING I'VE MADE IT
WHEN IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU
IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU JESUS

KING OF ENDLESS WORTH
NO ONE COULD EXPRESS
HOW MUCH YOU DESERVE
AND THROUGH ALL THESE YEARS
ALL I HAVE IS YOURS
EVERY SINGLE BREATH

Recovery

2009-03-02T08:26:00.003+08:00

God have been dealing with me a lot of my emotions, things of the past, having a hard time. but i thank God for Minghui, she is the 1st leader i can just come transparent with. i wrote her a letter regarding my past - the hurts and failed relationships and things which had happened...i was crying when i wrote the letter...i dunno y suddenly all these came back to my mind...but i know until i deal with all these and move on...i am not ready for a new relationship or even be a connect group leader..have been struggling a lot...came across this book and i am reading it...it is very useful for me at this point of time...below are some abstracts from the book...

What is recovery? It is being able to reflect upon your past and how it contributed to your identity, both positive and negative, without allowing the negative to control your present life. Recovery is finding new meaning to your life by ridding yourself of the contamination of the past. It means claiming your circumstances instead of letting your circumstances claim your happiness.

Backsliding occurs because we are bent on following our desires, rather than God's guidelines. The end result is clear.

Although God and Satan use the same channels, they have different intention...God knits the spriti,soul and body in harmony and balance. Satan creates discord between the three areas. God offers faith, which is based in hope and love. Satan offers fear, which only brings discouragement and defeat.

Ephesians 6:13-17 (New King James Version)
13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. 14 Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15 and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 16 above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. 17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God;

The first thing to understand from these verses is that Jesus is our armour. He is our defence. We no longer have to find ways of defending ourselves, we have to implement all that He has provided. There are three pieces of armour which were given at our conversion. According to the verse, we have put on the belt of truth, put on the breastplate of righteousness, and put on shoes of readiness that comes from peace.

The Belt of Truth. We are to align ourselves with the word of God. The Bible tells us that Jesus is the saem yesterday, today and tomorrow. Knowing that God loves us and is on our side means that we can trust Him and what is written in the Bible. We need this strong base of support to withstand the schemes of Satan.

The Breastplace of Righteousness. We do not stand on our own merits. We never did. The breastplate enables us to stand because of the righteousness of Jesus. He is our grounding before God. The breastplate protects us from those emotions which challenge our standing before God -- self condemnation or pride.

The Shoes of Peace. Peace is a natural result of standing on the merits of Christ. Our trust is in Him and He will not fail us. Circumstances may not have changed, and temptation may not have ceased, but this peace passes all understanding. Peace in our heart enables us to stand.

Qualifications For Leadership

2009-03-01T21:05:00.001+08:00

Qualifications For Leadership
1 Mar 2009

They shall be holy to their God and not profane the name of their God, for they offer the offerings of the LORD made by fire, and the bread of their God; therefore they shall be holy. <Leviticus 21:6>

The call to spiritual leadership is a great privilege and honor. There were 12 conditions given for the selection of priests:

(1) No man who is blind. You have to be a person of vision and revelation. A leader leads from the front. If you don’t know what God is saying and where He is taking you, you can’t be a leader in the house of the Lord.

(2) No man who is lame. God is holy. If you are not walking uprightly with the Lord, you can’t be His leader.

(3) No man with a flat nose (KJV). In the Bible, the nose symbolizes spiritual discernment. A leader has to be a discerner of people’s hearts (Heb. 5:14).

(4) No man with any limb too long. This speaks of those who are unbalanced in doctrine or those who have added teachings that are not of God. Such people would lead Christians astray.

(5) No man with a broken foot. Proverbs 25:19 talks about an unfaithful man as a person with a broken foot. A leader has to be reliable and trustworthy.

(6) No man with a broken hand. Such a priest can’t carry the vessels of the Lord in the tabernacle. His services would be faulty. A leader must have the ability to serve God well.

(7) No man who is a hunchback. A leader must be able to shoulder burdens. He must have a steely backbone to carry the weight of the ministry.

(8) No man who is a dwarf. Someone who is immature and stunted in his spiritual growth can’t be a leader in God’s house.

(9) No man with a defect in his eye. Jesus talks about being single-eyed (Matt. 6:22, KJV). Being focused and determined to fulfill the vision of the Lord is a leadership qualification.

(10) No man with scurvy (KJV). This person is not properly nourished in his life. A leader has to feed on daily manna from heaven—the Word of God.

(11) No man with a scab. You can’t be a leader if your life is not spotless and without blemish. A leader of God must have proven character and a good reputation.

(12) No man who is a eunuch. A leader in God’s house must have the capacity to produce life and bring forth fruit.

How to Handle Disappointment

2009-02-26T10:25:00.001+08:00

Disappointment is one of the hardest feelings to shake. When one of your friends lets you down, it's sometimes tough to deal with it emotionally. Learn to handle your disappointment in healthy and positive ways, so you can get over it and move on.

Step1 - Re-evaluate your expectations of your friend. Sometimes you experience feelings of disappointment because you set expectations too high. Ask yourself if you're being realistic about the friendship. Maybe your friend is too busy to hang out every, single weekend. Be sure you are not asking too much of your friend.

Step2 - Talk about your feelings. Handle your disappointment with clear communication. Your friend cannot change his behavior if he is not aware of how it makes you feel. You'll feel validated if he acknowledges your feelings.

Step3 - Be understanding. Your friend probably did not mean to cause your disappointment. There may be stressful events happening in your friend's life that cause her to act that way. Understand that everybody makes mistakes now and then. Handle your disappointment by not dwelling on them. Forgive your friend and move on.

Step4 - Look for the lesson in the difficult situation. Every disappointment brings an opportunity to learn, even when it's caused by a friend. Looking for the lesson helps you transform negative feelings into something positive.

Step5 - Keep your perspective. Your disappointment may seem like a big deal right now, but it may not be. Ask yourself how much the your disappointment will bother you a week from now, a year from now and five years from now. This helps keep minor issues in proper perspective.

Friends

2009-02-25T17:02:00.008+08:00

Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
Cant believe the hopes hes granted
Means a chapter in your life is through
But well keep you close as always
It wont even seem youve gone
cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

And friends are friends forever
If the lords the lord of them
And a friend will not say never
cause the welcome will not end
Though its hard to let you go
In the fathers hands we know
That a lifetimes not too long to live as friends.

With the faith and love gods given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy youll live in
Is the strength that now you show

But well keep you close as always
It wont even seem youve gone
cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

Just receive a sms from my ex-colleague-sharon aka "mummy" she say she was going thru the things she packed from the office and she found this card i gave her..it says:你脸上的笑容少了，开心也得过一天，不开心也得过一天，倒不如每天开心的过-Serene 的人生观...when i saw that msg..i cried...cause recently smiles have been lacking from my life and face..hope to find back the cheerful serene again