Awesome revelation Part I
Thursday, August 12, 2004
Previous days have been really a test of my strength and endurance man...haha it is like I am going thru mission impossible, classes after classes, while my temperature keeps on rising. I have nothing against packed classes but I have something against my stupid body when it is not working. But God have been so real to me these few days. Indeed, as the bible says, God is with us in all situations. On sat night, after coming back from classes, my fever actually rose to 37.8 nearing 38. I really feel nauseous throughout the whole leadership classes. While others were happily eating dinner during break, I have to run to toilet and vomit. I wanted to see a doc during my break but the queue was long. Throughout the whole of saturday, I wanted to give up so so many times. I wanted to call bro ed and tell him I really had no strength to attend the classes. I wasnt really at my top form. But on the other hand, my spirit man was telling me to go on cause he wanted more and more of God. Never feel so tore apart with my thoughts before. The temptation to give up is so strong, but the desire to know God was strong too. The thought of giving up and attending the next leadership classes was really strong, but something in me just didnt want to give up. Was it stubbornness? or was it something more? I think it was faith. It was faith and love that keeps me going. Faith in Jehovah Rapha and love in the word of God that keeps me going. I asked myself countless of times throughout the day, "Amber why are you so persistent? You can just go home and rest if you want to. Bro ed is not going to kill you for that." But something, there is just this something in me that keep on going on. I decided the best thing to do in this solution is to pray. While I was praying, I keep on remembering bible verses that promise healing. It’s like machine guns that keep on firing, one after another. Throughout all these verses, the main point can be summed up to, "Faith and believe" I knew that God wants me to have faith and believe in Him. So I just persisted on. After the class end, my fever worsened and at night, I have to take a cab to 24 hr clinic. I was upset because why didn’t my fever get better? why wasn’t I heal yet? Now I even have to incur more expenses?
