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How to Handle Disappointment
Thursday, February 26, 2009

Disappointment is one of the hardest feelings to shake. When one of your friends lets you down, it's sometimes tough to deal with it emotionally. Learn to handle your disappointment in healthy and positive ways, so you can get over it and move on.

Step1 - Re-evaluate your expectations of your friend. Sometimes you experience feelings of disappointment because you set expectations too high. Ask yourself if you're being realistic about the friendship. Maybe your friend is too busy to hang out every, single weekend. Be sure you are not asking too much of your friend.

Step2 - Talk about your feelings. Handle your disappointment with clear communication. Your friend cannot change his behavior if he is not aware of how it makes you feel. You'll feel validated if he acknowledges your feelings.

Step3 - Be understanding. Your friend probably did not mean to cause your disappointment. There may be stressful events happening in your friend's life that cause her to act that way. Understand that everybody makes mistakes now and then. Handle your disappointment by not dwelling on them. Forgive your friend and move on.

Step4 - Look for the lesson in the difficult situation. Every disappointment brings an opportunity to learn, even when it's caused by a friend. Looking for the lesson helps you transform negative feelings into something positive.

Step5 - Keep your perspective. Your disappointment may seem like a big deal right now, but it may not be. Ask yourself how much the your disappointment will bother you a week from now, a year from now and five years from now. This helps keep minor issues in proper perspective.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
Cant believe the hopes hes granted
Means a chapter in your life is through
But well keep you close as always
It wont even seem youve gone
cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

And friends are friends forever
If the lords the lord of them
And a friend will not say never
cause the welcome will not end
Though its hard to let you go
In the fathers hands we know
That a lifetimes not too long to live as friends.

With the faith and love gods given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy youll live in
Is the strength that now you show

But well keep you close as always
It wont even seem youve gone
cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

Just receive a sms from my ex-colleague-sharon aka "mummy" she say she was going thru the things she packed from the office and she found this card i gave her..it says:你脸上的笑容少了,开心也得过一天,不开心也得过一天,倒不如每天开心的过-Serene 的人生观...when i saw that msg..i cried...cause recently smiles have been lacking from my life and face..hope to find back the cheerful serene again

My Weekend
Monday, February 23, 2009

Emerge was great on fri..was sitting at the floor area that, felt so young during praise & worship,kept jumping and jumping...haha..hmmm...ya..there was a mini interview between Pst Zhuang & Annabelle..knew she was a cgl before but din noe she was a zs...she came church at 13,became cgl at 15 and a zs at 22,she is 35 now and she dun look a bit like 35,she look so so young..she share how on fire she was,how she would call her cgl early in the morning to ask if there is prayer meeting,her leader who was still sleeping would say no,she would ask if there are other groups praying and ask for details and go down to pray with the group even if she dunno anyone there,wow..super on fire sia...

that day PsT Zhuang ask who is under 25,i happily raised my hand with my members but he asked who is under 20, i was the only 1 with my hand down,all my members only 17-19..as Pst talk bout revival in school,i felt old and i felt i wasted my youth away,what was i going in sec 4 and poly?i got saved during end of sec 3,what have i done when i was still in school?its been 9 yrs but what have i done?but God showed me that He is going to use me,to impact youth who will bring other youth to His kingdom :)

after Emerge,went to a ktv in chinatown to celebrate sec sch friend bday,its only 10++ per person, went home at bout 2,woke at at 11am the next day and went to jurong point,was walking aimlessly when i saw 1 of my colleague-Elizabeth so we had lunch together, then met gwen and aaron,got refreshments and went cg,had mos burger after that,reached home at bout 11...tired...
sat i was feeling kinda upset,was thinking the friendship strain with Joanne,Jessie and Emily?is it really my problem?know they like to sing ktv so told them bout the 10dollars ktv i went to,we suppose to go out together on sat,cause if u message 2009 to 79777,you got this sms reply from Singapore Tourism Board,the reply acts as a passport to free entry to Singapore flyer and bird park and a few places,if you are within the 2009 people in queue..in the end we din go cause one of the colleague reach at 7am,already a lot people,a lot camp overnight,so singaporeans,hehe...then i receive this msg from Jessie,we want to go the 10dollars ktv now,where is it?can tell us how to go?she msg somehting like that, when i read that msg,i was super upset, cause i din even tell them i not free that day and they dunno i got cg..cause when Joanne ask bout going out on sat, i din know got cg at sat and i was going emerge on fri so i say i can go with them...but that msg from jessie,obvious they did not ask me to join them,they just cut me out from their activities,at that point of time, i know that answer i put up on twitter-colleagues or friends?to them maybe i m just a colleague...was upset at that point and now i feeling beta le..i know i still have a lot of friends who care..at least i know my cg members really love me and care..they more anxious bout me losing weight and getting a bf..haha..thanks N317,you guys are not just my members but my friends :)

ytd after svc,fellowship at coffee bean then went JP with Minghui and Gwen,had a great time...haha..Minghui keep saying me and gwen acting very funny..she very worried...Gwen treated us to toast box and next week i be treating them to Ichiban...i owe Minghui a lot of meals le...then we to get thigh guard for Gwen and i realise both of us the size of our thigh is the same...haha..then we kept laughing..and i can only go home at 7, they left at 5+, Minghui ask me take bus with them then change bus home...haha...crazy but i did that,,enjoyed the fellowship a lot

Carrot, Egg or Coffee?
Thursday, February 19, 2009

Carrot, Egg or Coffee?

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water. In the first, she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs and the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil without saying a word.

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what do you see?"

"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.
She brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they got soft.
She then asked her to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg.

Finally, she asked her to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled, as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked. "What's the point, mother?"

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity--boiling water--but each reacted differently.

The carrot went in strong, hard and unrelenting. However after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.

The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior. But, after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.

The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water they had changed the water.

"Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond?
Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?"

Think of this: Which am I?

Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity, do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and a hardened heart?

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.

When the hours are the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate to another level?
How do you handle Adversity?


Don't tell GOD how big your storm is. Tell the storm how big your GOD is!

I want to be the coffee bean, when things are at my worst, i will not give up but i will get better and change the situation around me.

Aim:Connect group leader by end FEB 2009! 10 more days to go

A Leader’s First Responsibility Is To Define Reality
Tuesday, February 17, 2009

A Leader’s First Responsibility Is To Define Reality
By Dr John C Maxwell

The first time I heard that it is the leader’s responsibility to define real­ity was from leadership expert and author Max DePree. His assertion made sense to me instantly, and I agreed with it. But that doesn’t mean I was naturally good at it.

Of all the lessons I’ve learned about leadership, this one has been the most difficult. I could be the poster child for positive thinking. I am wired to give hope and encourage others. I just can’t help myself. As result, my philosophy has been a little like that of humorist Garrison Keillor, who said, “Sometimes you have to look reality in the eye and deny it” Truthfully, my aversion to being realistic and my occasional reluctance to embrace the fact that it is a leader’s responsibility to define reality has cost me greatly. But at the age of fifty-four, I finally learned my lesson!

You can't define what you don't see
I have often taught that people change only when they hurt enough that they have to, learn enough that they want to, or receive enough they are able to.In my case, pain prompted me to learn. In 2001, I came face to face with a painful reality: One of my companies was steadily losing money and its effort seemed to be going in too may directions. This problem did not appear suddenly. For five years there had been indicators that I should make changes, but I was willing to make them. I needed to change my leadership team, but I didn't want to do it. I loved my inner circle. And year after year, I was willing to absorb the small losses that the company experienced. But after five year, the losses began to add up and take their toll.

My brother, Larry, who excels in business and always has a firm grasp on reality, kept exhorting me to face the truth and make some tough decisions. As a leader, I know the first rule of winning is "Don't beat yourself." By not facing reality and making some uncomfortable changes, I was beating myself, and I was beginning to feel discouraged. So when Margaret and I left to visit London for two weeks, I resolved to wrestle with the issues and come to some kind of decision. To help me think things though and process my decisions, I read a book that had just been published: Jack: Straight from the Gut by Jack Welch. In it I read the following six rules for successful leadership:

  1. Control your destiny, or someone else will.
  2. Face reality as it is, not as it was or as you wish it were.
  3. Be candid with everyone.
  4. Don't manage, lead.
  5. Change before you have to.
  6. If you don't have a competitive advantage, don't compete.

As I read this advice from the CEO of CEOs, I realized that five of his six rules for successful leadership were about facing reality. It was like having a bucket of cold water thrown in my face. When I returned home, I gath­ered my key people around me, read them the six rules, and announced the changes I would be making within the company.

For the next three years I kept Welch’s six rules in my briefcase. I often pulled them out and reread them, especially when I was facing yet another difficult leadership decision.

Vision ≠ Fantasy
One of the pitfalls that can stop potential leaders is the desire to focus on vision to the detriment of facing reality. But good leaders are both visionary and realistic. The Law of the Scoreboard in my book The 17 Indisputable Law of Teamwork states, “The team can make adjustments when it knows where it stands.” In other words, reality is the foundation for positive change. If you don’t face reality, then you will not be able to make necessary changes.

Bill Easum, president and senior manag­ing partner in Easum, Bandy and Associates, asserts, “Realistic leaders are objective enough to minimize illusions. They understand that self-deception can cost them their vision.” That was true for me. My high belief in people and my desire to protect people I loved got in the way of facing the truth—and being honest with them when their performance was hurt­ing the company.

If you are optimistic, as I am, and you naturally encourage people, as I do, then you may need to take extra care to look reality in the eye and keep yourself grounded. Continually cast a realistic eye on…

• The Situation—it is often worse than you think.

• The Process—it usually takes longer than you think.

• The Price—it always costs more than you think.

If you lack realism today, then you may lack credibility with others tomorrow. As my friend Andy Stanley says, “Facing current reality is often nasty, but necessary.”

Reality Check
In Managing in Turbulent Times, Peter Drucker writes, “A time of tur­bulence is a dangerous time, but its greatest danger is a temptation to deny reality.” To guard myself from that danger, a few years ago I wrote the fol­lowing questions. They help me handle the nasty but necessary realities of life. Perhaps they can also help you.

Questions 1 Ask to Help Me Define Reality

1. What is reality in this situation? Do others agree with my assessment?

2. Can I identify each issue? Can I break down reality to better understand it?

3. Can the issues be fixed? Separate the solvable from the unsolvable.

4. What are the options? Establish a game plan.

5. Am I willing to follow the game plan? My commitment as a leader is essential.

6. Will my leadership team follow the game plan? Their commitment as leaders is also essential.

These questions force me to look realistically at the issues rather than glossing over and putting a positive spin on them.

As leaders, what we do—or don’t do—always has consequences. We can try to maintain an unrealistic outlook or lifestyle, but someday we will have to pay a realistic price for it. There is no avoiding it. That was the case for me. After years of losses in my company, I had to sell a sizable interest in an investment to cover them. Every cent came out of pocket. Someone once said, “You can fool some of the people all of the time and all of the people some of the time, and that should be sufficient.” As a leader, I was the one who was fooled. And the worst thing was that I had done it to myself! The greatest fool is the one who fools himself.

The ability to define reality as a leader means embracing realistic think­ing so that we can see the consequences of our actions further and with greater clarity than those around us. Why is that important? When you are a leader, other people are depending on you. My inability to correctly define reality in my organization ultimately hurt not only me but others. People lost jobs, teams were torn apart, dreams went unrealized, and most sadly, some friendships ended.

Guarding Against Unrealistic Thinking
Although I finally learned this lesson. I still do not trust myself in this area. My mental and emotional wiring will always make me want to think the best and overlook the negative. So I have to guard against this natural bent. Asking myself questions to help me define reality isn’t enough. I have to do more. Here are four practices I try to follow continually:

1. Admit My Weakness
Just as a person facing a drinking problem is helped by going to an AA meeting and saying, “I am an alcoholic,” I must confess to others, “I am an unrealistic person.” Admitting my weakness is a first step toward recovery. You can’t define reality if you won’t face reality.

2. Embrace Realistic People
The old saying “birds of a feather flock together” is really true. I like to be around people who are like me. That may be a good thing when I want to have fun, but it can be a bad thing when I want to lead well. I need peo­ple to complete me, to be strong where I am weak. An effective leadership team has members who complement one another.

3. Ask for Honesty from Others
All leaders need to have a group of people around them who will tell them what they really think. They don’t need a bunch of yes-men and yes­-women. The only way a leader will get honest feedback is by as king for it, and by treating people well when they actually give it. However, many lead­ers aren’t secure enough to ask for it or to respond to it without defensive­ness. Sometimes we don’t want to hear the truth even though we need to. The reality is that many people don’t want to face reality. That’s why it is a good idea to ask others to help us.

4. Invite “Fresh Eyes” to Check Me Out
It’s amazing what you don’t see when you are in a familiar environ­ment. The longer I lead the more I realize I need people who are not in my organization to look at me and my organization. I have often paid outside consultants to come in, observe, and tell me what they see. I value what they have to say.

You may be thinking, That’s a lot to be doing: looking at Jack Welch’s rules, asking yourself questions to define reality using four practices to guard against unrealistic thinking! Isn’t that overdoing it? Maybe it would be over-doing it for you—but it’s not for me. Because realistic thinking is an area of weakness for me, I need to come at it from a variety of angles and have more than one system to correct the way I do things.

Defining reality is the starting point for good leadership. It’s like finding “You Are Here” on a map before trying to get where you’re going. As Jim Collins points out in Good to Great, good leaders who lead great companies face reality and make changes accordingly. “You absolutely cannot make a series of good decisions without first confronting the brutal facts.” Never forget, the way you define reality determines where and how you lead. And where and how you lead determines where your followers end up. In other words, a lot is depending on it.

Application Exercises
1. What kind of thinker are you? On a scale of 1 (realism) to 10 (optimism), where are you? Do you naturally think and speak in terms of best-case sce­narios (as I do) or worst-case scenarios? Now ask friends, colleagues, and your spouse to rate you. If you are highly optimistic (others might call you unrealistic), you need to create systems in your life to keep you from lead­ing your followers in a wrong direction.

2. Who speaks truth in your life? All leaders need people around them who are willing to speak hard truths. Who will tell you what you need to hear? If you have people who do that, affirm them for it and ask them to con­tinue to do so. If you don’t, find some. You don’t need people who will knock you down—just people who will help you stay down-to-earth.

3. Where do you need a reality check? If you are not seeing positive results in an area you are leading, use the list of questions in the chapter to help you see if you are looking at the situation realistically. Ask yourself:

• What is reality in this situation? Do others agree with my assessment?

• Can I identify each issue? Can I break down reality to better understand it?

• Can the issues be fixed? Separate the solvable from the unsolvable.

• What are the options? Establish a game plan.

• Am I willing to follow the game plan? My commitment as a leader is essential.

• Will my leadership team follow the game plan? Their commitment as leaders is also essential.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

To all my LOVE ONES,


Friendship is a network that need no recharge, no roaming,
no activation, no signal problems, Just make sure
you don't switch off your heart
Friendship is like standing on a wet cement...
the longer you stay, the harder its to leave and you can never go
without leaving your footprints...
One of the best moments of life is to meet an old friend after years
and feel that things haven't changed and you realise how much
you missed having them around...
Friendship is needless, like philosophy, like art it has no survival value,
rather it is one of those things that give value to survival
Friendship is like a tennis match; To win, you have to serve well,
and always remember it begins with love all

They love you but they are not your lover...
They care for you but they are not from your family...
They are ready to share your paion but they are not in your blood relation...
They are....
True friend
Scolds like a Dad!
Cares like a Mum!
Teases like a sister!
Irritates like a brother!
and finally loves you more than a lover!

Do you know the relation between your 2 eyes?
They blink together, move together, cry together, see things together & sleep together.
Though they never see each other, friendship should be just like that :)

iworship101 Part 2
Friday, February 13, 2009

Yesterday went for iworship101 lesson 2, Bro Poh say during our quiet time, there must be 3 things: 1) we must be aware of God’s presence. 2) Are we touched by God. 3) Is God speaking to us? He also mentioned there is a difference between being interested and being committed. When you are interested in something, you will only do it at your convenient time. But if you are committed, you only want result and there are no excuses even if it is at your most inconvenient time.

He mentioned for a song leader or a guitarist, we got to train hard so the fight will be easy during praise and worship. A great leader is not born but trained and taught. Bro Poh also shares with us how he spent time with God daily, not playing the guitar cause he be distracted and not communicating with God. But for him to follow a prayer list everyday and pray, by the 3rd day, he would be tired of the same routine. He shared with us that he needs to do different things that will give him the tick and enjoy spending time with God. He likes jogging, so on Monday he will go for a jog then spent time with God. On Tuesday he will drive his car listening to an audio sermon. On Wednesday he would do a self-bible study, he would buy Foundation truth following the book and reading the verses. On Thursday, he would read 2 chapters in the bible and meditate on a verse, not just meditating but checking up the concordance. On Friday, he would just play a minus one cd and worship God. On Saturday, he would follow a prayer list and pray. On Sunday, he would sit in a rest chair, listening to Christian music and read a spiritual book.

For those who thinks that reading the bible is tough-having to look at the book, you can follow this plan from BIBLE GATEWAY, reading off from the com, it will be easier, here is the link: http://www.biblegateway.com/resources/readingplans/

Before Bro Poh end the class, he left us with 10 different kinds of Chord progressions, but I missed out the last one

1) G
2) G C or Gm7 Cmaj7
3) G Em7 C D
4) G Em7 C Cm9
5) G Bm7 Am7 D
6) G Bm7 Em C/D
7) G D/F # Am7 C/D
8) G G D/F # Em7 C/D
9) G Am7 Bm7 C/D

Expectations in Friends
Tuesday, February 10, 2009

was thinking maybe i should not expect so much from my friends...its the same group of colleagues i have mention in my earlier post...is it really cause i have neglect them 1st? i dun think so..normally i ask them for dinner..they either cannot or save money...so i cannot possible go without dinner right?of course i go eat with elizabeth & clara...then they seldom watch movie de mah...even they watch..if they can..they go malaysia watch...of course again i will watch with elizabeth & clara...somemore we like same kind of shows...

maybe what happen today is not within what they know...their supervisor brought soup from home...then when i order lunch..they din order...so i ask they go out eat?Jessie say no...their asst manager brought soup..then during lunch...all of them are sharing...Elizabeth came up to take her rice then realise i sitting alone at the table so she join me...after a while..she say she know y i look so unhappy...i mean my mum wanted to cook fried rice...i would have brought along for everyone...haiz...or am i just too xiao qi?or i expect too much?do they treat me as colleague or a friend?i treat them as my friends...

Walking with God!!!
Monday, February 09, 2009

Today after work, I went for the evening prayer meeting at Jurong West Church…I was late...I reached at 6.15pm…when I reached...I felt the strong presence of God...but I could not pray according to the prayer list...I just knelt down in my seat and tears just flow down my cheeks...I just kept crying and I told God I am sorry...because there are some point of views mine differ from my cgl…and I did not talk to her bout it and I just kept it inside me...as times pass...I slowly begin to think she can be unreasonable...I am not saying my leader is not a good leader...she is a leader who really cares for all of us…and sacrifice her time and money...its just these points of views that drew us apart...yesterday I told God...no matter how I may disagree with my leader...I dun want to dishonor her...I told God to help me...help me to have the courage to talk to my leader...I love my leader and I also want to respect and honor the one God have placed above my life...there must be a reason why God put me under her...I told myself I am going to call my cgl up after the prayer meeting...I want to talk to her bout all those things I dun see in her way...

After that decision...I was flipping my bible through Psalms....then I closed my bible...I prayed and ask God for a verse...then I open up to Psalms again...I saw the passages Psalms 121

I will lift up my eyes to the hills—From whence comes my help?
My help comes from the LORD,Who made heaven and earth.

He will not allow your foot to be moved;He who keeps you will not slumber.
Behold, He who keeps IsraelShall neither slumber nor sleep.

The LORD is your keeper;The LORD is your shade at your right hand.
The sun shall not strike you by day,Nor the moon by night.

The LORD shall preserve you from all evil;He shall preserve your soul.
The LORD shall preserve your going out and your coming in

From this time forth, and even forevermore.

I was really encouraged by the word...Pst Ming led the prayer meeting and we sang the song...my life, your song...the presence of God was just so strong…Pst Ming told us to put our right hand out…and he say imagine that’s God’s hand...and we are walking on it...if we walk away...God’s hand will not move with us...God’s hand will remain there and he ask us to walk in God’s ways..God's hand is always there as long as we dun walk away from it...at that time I was like “wow”..but now when I write it down…maybe not same words...dun have the impact..but prayer meet was great today..

After I reach home and showered...I pluck up my courage to call my cgl…it sounds stupid but I was hoping she dun pick up the call…but after 3-4 rings...she pick up the call and I was like...Hi minghui...hmm...then she ask if I was alright..I say ya...then I just suddenly apolosgise...I told her I m sorry...she answered ok...you are forgiven...think she must be thinking what happened...I went on to explain what happened at the prayer meet...then I went on to the things we have difference views in...she clarified and she explain...we had a great chat and I was happy that I talked to her...I felt a big rock taken off my shoulder...yeah..

iworship 101
Friday, February 06, 2009

Yesterday I went to chec in Bukit Merah after work for iworship101 with Bro Poh...It’s a lesson for members in ET Zone & Yilun Zone...when we started with a time of worship...before we worship...Bro Poh say the soul, spirit and flesh must be in 1 and as we hunger for God like we want a drink after running the 2.4km run...God will touch us...He mentioned God is there even before we reach the place...We sang the song A HEART AFTER YOU...





And the presence of God was so strong and tears just flow down my cheeks...its been long since I last felt this...there was this assurance that no matter what God is always there...He spoke to me asking me to be more patient...I have been quite impatient with my walk with Him...always give up before He show up during qt...though I pray for more than an hour daily...sometimes its not the quantity but the quality...an hour of prayer without His presence cannot be compared to the 10mins of worship with His presence...

Bro Poh taught us a lot of things and I am just excited to bring the excitement I have to this week cg...hope to pull the presence down and hope this week cg meeting praise and worship will be a higher level where all the members experience God and get touched...Bro Poh ask can 1 touch make a difference?

1 kings 19:5-8
5 Then as he lay and slept under a broom tree, suddenly an angel touched him, and said to him, “Arise and eat.” 6 Then he looked, and there by his head was a cake baked on coals, and a jar of water. So he ate and drank, and lay down again. 7 And the angel of the LORD came back the second time, and touched him, and said, “Arise and eat, because the journey is too great for you.” 8 So he arose, and ate and drank; and he went in the strength of that food forty days and forty nights as far as Horeb, the mountain of God.

Yes...1 touch can make a difference :)

God is always there when on one else is there
Thursday, February 05, 2009

Today i am quite upset....for me..i treasure friendship a lot...and i get disppointed easily by my own friends...actually what happened was a very small matter but i am upset..the few colleagues who are closer to me, Jessie, Emily and Joanne...we used to go out for dinner quite frequent in the past after work...and if we are going out to eat for lunch...we will say before hand or if they going to da-bao to work...that time it was still them who say by the time i promote dun forget bout them...who knows i will just hang around with those managers and stuff...i say i wun...i was confident cause friendship matters to me...ya..i admit nowadays i am closer to 2 other colleagues Clara & Elizabeth...that is because bout 2 months ago...whenever i ask them for dinner...they say want to say money or going swimming...so i just ask clara or elizabeth whether they can make it for dinner...so over the long run...i go dinner with them more...reason being joanne, jessie wanna save money so i dun wan always ask them for dinner...and its always me who ask them...it just get tired...friendship is a 2-way thing...not everytime i ask them...like for elizabeth...there are times i ask her and there are times she ask me for dinner..

then today...again...they da-bao to work without informing me...bacause today my boss not helping us to buy lunch...i would have thought we go out eat...then when i saw them da-bao...ya...that time they told me is last min decision...at least they can let me know so i can see i da-bao or i go out eat with other colleagues...this morning when i reach office then i realise they already da-bao for lunch...i was upset...partly cause i ate bee hoon for breakfast...i was not hungry...i did not have lunch...but the whole day i have been feeling quite upset...

why does it seem that all the friendship i have...i feel people just take me for granted...there are a few in church last time we very close...but same thing..is always i ask them out...its a 1-way thing...maybe you will say y so calculative...its not that...it just get tiring when u are the only one making the effort to kip the friendship going...and o m really tired...who are my real true friends who care?who are the ones that will really be there when i need them, when i m at my lowest point of life, when i face all the trials and challenges in life...to be there to share my joy and sadness...one i can call a buddy, a friend, a sister, a confidant...

but at least one thing i know for sure...God is always there...He is there to pick me up when i am at my lowest, He is there to encourage when things go wrong...He is there whether you are happy or sad...

Let me end off with the song 讓我..the song we sang during cny service worship...




When Difficulties Arise

When Difficulties Arise…
“Hang In There”

Difficulties arise in the lives of us all. What is most important is dealing with the hard times, coping with the changes, and getting through to the other side where the sun is still shining just for you.

It takes a strong person to deal with tough times and difficult choices. But you are a string person. It takes courage. But you possess the inner courage to see you through. It takes being an active participant in your life. But you are in the driver’s seat, and you can determine the direction you want tomorrow to go.

Hang in there… and take care to see that you don’t lose sight of the one thing that is constant, beautiful, and true. Everything will be fine – and it will turn out that way because of the special kind of person you are.
So… beginning today and lasting a lifetime though – hang in there, and don’t be afraid to feel like the morning sun is shining… just for you.

"You are the light of the world. let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven."
Matthew 5:14,16

God's beloved child
18th November 1985
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