Slept very early last night cause this morning going for the church morning prayer...Woke up after receiving morning call from Minghui...thanks for the call...force myself to get out of bed and wash up...had a light breakfast and went to church..saw Jean and Bernice on the bus...reach church exactly at 7am...haha...spent time with God...prayed for Eleanor for her exam today and also Gwen for her O level oral..Prayed bout personal life too, to a point I cried...dunno is the presence of God which i miss or cause of the things i going through..At about 7.45am, we begin to worship God, I cried as i worship...every word was really from my heart, yes, though i sang the song before, but have never been so impactful as today...The song is deeper in Love
DEEPER IN LOVE
THERE IS A LONGING ONLY YOU CAN FILLA RAGING TEMPEST ONLY YOU CAN STILL MY SOUL IS THIRSTY LORD TO KNOW YOU AS I'M KNOWN DRINK FROM THE RIVER THAT FLOWS BEFORE YOUR THRONE TAKE ME DEEPER DEEPER IN LOVE WITH YOU JESUS HOLD ME CLOSE IN YOUR EMBRACE TAKE ME DEEPER DEEPER THAN I'VE EVER BEEN BEFORE I JUST WANT TO LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE HOW I LONG TO BE DEEPER IN LOVE SUNRISE TO SUNRISE I WILL SEEK YOUR FACE DRAWN BY THE SPIRIT TO THE PROMISE OF YOUR GRACE MY HEART HAS FOUND IN YOU A HOPE THAT WILL ABIDE HERE IN YOUR PRESENCE FOREVER SATISFIEDI was crying when worshipping...I told God yes...Take me deeper in love with you...I wan to love you more and more...I miss you, Father God..i miss your presence...
The prayer meetin ended at 8...wow..church provided breakfast which i did not know...my colleague bought me breakfast le so that become my lunch...haha...took cab but not easy to get a cab...got on the cab at 8.15...the driver dunno where is Gul Circle...in the end waste a lot time...hai...so sad...was late for work...actually was angry...thinking God i make time for you, I came to spend time with you and in the end i late for work...i begin to blame God and begin to wonder if I wan to go again tml...but when i scan my card at my office, it was exactly 8.45am...thank God my company give us 15 mins grace...i start work at 8.30...but as long as we reach by 8.45am..pay will not be deducted...I look at the whole situation at another view...yes, i was late for work but the amazing part is God let me reach in time that my pay was not deducted...if i had reached at 8.46, 16 mins of pay would be deducted...it maybe just a few seconds to 8.46am...but i manage to scan my card exactly at 8.45...at that time i know i was wrong..so many times when things go wrong, we just blame God..but our God is a good God, just need to see things in another point of view..things may not be that bad...though i wake up earlier today...but not once i yawn in my workplace...not once i feel tired but i feel energetic, i feel i have more strength to do my things..and my flu was gone...last night and this morning i was still having bad flu...blocked nose...but now i recovered:) thanks Minghui for praying for me...tml i still going for the prayer meeting...i will go everyday...till friday...cause i never know what surprises my Father in Heaven will give me...I long to hear Him speak...Hear Him say He loves me...I am going to press on...I believe both my cell group leader and connect group leader will be there for me...not forgetting my cg members and usher friends...thanks for not giving up on me...esp to Minghui, Gwen, Wanyun, Peixiong, Eunice, Wendy...u guys never fail to call me or msg me since i left...u guys are always there...I know all others care too and prayed for me too..thanks everyone...not fogetting God who did not give up on me...just that i feel He is playing Hide-n-seek with me now...i dun seem to be able to find Him...but i wun give up...
