God is always there when on one else is there
Thursday, February 05, 2009
Today i am quite upset....for me..i treasure friendship a lot...and i get disppointed easily by my own friends...actually what happened was a very small matter but i am upset..the few colleagues who are closer to me, Jessie, Emily and Joanne...we used to go out for dinner quite frequent in the past after work...and if we are going out to eat for lunch...we will say before hand or if they going to da-bao to work...that time it was still them who say by the time i promote dun forget bout them...who knows i will just hang around with those managers and stuff...i say i wun...i was confident cause friendship matters to me...ya..i admit nowadays i am closer to 2 other colleagues Clara & Elizabeth...that is because bout 2 months ago...whenever i ask them for dinner...they say want to say money or going swimming...so i just ask clara or elizabeth whether they can make it for dinner...so over the long run...i go dinner with them more...reason being joanne, jessie wanna save money so i dun wan always ask them for dinner...and its always me who ask them...it just get tired...friendship is a 2-way thing...not everytime i ask them...like for elizabeth...there are times i ask her and there are times she ask me for dinner..
then today...again...they da-bao to work without informing me...bacause today my boss not helping us to buy lunch...i would have thought we go out eat...then when i saw them da-bao...ya...that time they told me is last min decision...at least they can let me know so i can see i da-bao or i go out eat with other colleagues...this morning when i reach office then i realise they already da-bao for lunch...i was upset...partly cause i ate bee hoon for breakfast...i was not hungry...i did not have lunch...but the whole day i have been feeling quite upset...
why does it seem that all the friendship i have...i feel people just take me for granted...there are a few in church last time we very close...but same thing..is always i ask them out...its a 1-way thing...maybe you will say y so calculative...its not that...it just get tiring when u are the only one making the effort to kip the friendship going...and o m really tired...who are my real true friends who care?who are the ones that will really be there when i need them, when i m at my lowest point of life, when i face all the trials and challenges in life...to be there to share my joy and sadness...one i can call a buddy, a friend, a sister, a confidant...
but at least one thing i know for sure...God is always there...He is there to pick me up when i am at my lowest, He is there to encourage when things go wrong...He is there whether you are happy or sad...
Let me end off with the song 讓我..the song we sang during cny service worship...
讓我
你愛使我甦醒重新來過
深切渴望能活在你手中
生命跟隨你跳動
夢想因你而啟動
所有一切交給你
毫無保留
讓我為你而活
讓我為你而站立
永不放棄
像你愛我
讓我為你前進
我氣息是你贖回
如今單單屬於你
活出你旨意的生命
改變世界為你轉動
轉動的夢想
實現著希望
我已看見永恆的光
光芒在我心上
在世界綻放
讓我為你照亮
