Today after work, I went for the evening prayer meeting at Jurong West Church…I was late...I reached at 6.15pm…when I reached...I felt the strong presence of God...but I could not pray according to the prayer list...I just knelt down in my seat and tears just flow down my cheeks...I just kept crying and I told God I am sorry...because there are some point of views mine differ from my cgl…and I did not talk to her bout it and I just kept it inside me...as times pass...I slowly begin to think she can be unreasonable...I am not saying my leader is not a good leader...she is a leader who really cares for all of us…and sacrifice her time and money...its just these points of views that drew us apart...yesterday I told God...no matter how I may disagree with my leader...I dun want to dishonor her...I told God to help me...help me to have the courage to talk to my leader...I love my leader and I also want to respect and honor the one God have placed above my life...there must be a reason why God put me under her...I told myself I am going to call my cgl up after the prayer meeting...I want to talk to her bout all those things I dun see in her way...
After that decision...I was flipping my bible through Psalms....then I closed my bible...I prayed and ask God for a verse...then I open up to Psalms again...I saw the passages Psalms 121
I will lift up my eyes to the hills—From whence comes my help? My help comes from the LORD,Who made heaven and earth. He will not allow your foot to be moved;He who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, He who keeps IsraelShall neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD is your keeper;The LORD is your shade at your right hand. The sun shall not strike you by day,Nor the moon by night. The LORD shall preserve you from all evil;He shall preserve your soul. The LORD shall preserve your going out and your coming in From this time forth, and even forevermore.
I was really encouraged by the word...Pst Ming led the prayer meeting and we sang the song...my life, your song...the presence of God was just so strong…Pst Ming told us to put our right hand out…and he say imagine that’s God’s hand...and we are walking on it...if we walk away...God’s hand will not move with us...God’s hand will remain there and he ask us to walk in God’s ways..God's hand is always there as long as we dun walk away from it...at that time I was like “wow”..but now when I write it down…maybe not same words...dun have the impact..but prayer meet was great today..
After I reach home and showered...I pluck up my courage to call my cgl…it sounds stupid but I was hoping she dun pick up the call…but after 3-4 rings...she pick up the call and I was like...Hi minghui...hmm...then she ask if I was alright..I say ya...then I just suddenly apolosgise...I told her I m sorry...she answered ok...you are forgiven...think she must be thinking what happened...I went on to explain what happened at the prayer meet...then I went on to the things we have difference views in...she clarified and she explain...we had a great chat and I was happy that I talked to her...I felt a big rock taken off my shoulder...yeah..
"You are the light of the world.
let your light shine before men,
that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven."
God's beloved child
18th November 1985
A new Netbook / Ipad
A Secret desire...hee
Get my degree by 30yr old
Rise up to be connect group leader again