Sat was my last cg in N317, I was really upset when I heard the news, though I was always jokingly told Minghui I was to transfer cg, I never once meant it. When I heard it for the first time, I cried. Last Monday was hard for me, as I was showering, I kept crying. I was really really tired, 9 yrs in church, Joanne is going to be my 9th cgl. It is not easy for me to share with leaders my past, esp those darkest moments. I begin to share with Minghui only 2 months ago and now I am changing cg. I shared with Minghui cause I knew I needed help in that area. I know that changes can be good, we can move on and grow even more, but I am just too tired. Tired of changing and changing and changing. Though I had change cg so many times, this time I cried the most.
Sat during cg, during worship, tears kept flowing down my cheeks, I could not control them. I am also fearful of going to Joanne’s cg, I dunno why but there is this fear in me. I will miss N317, though I am not very close with every member but we shared our sad and happy moments together. We laugh together, suan each other together, eat together, fellowship and shared with each other. We had come together as one, prayed together, fast together, play together, had fun together.
Minghui: for the times I have given u trouble, sorry for that. But you have been a great leader, one who is willing to lay down your life for the members. Thanks for not giving up on me and kept on believing in me, I would not have come back without you being so persistent. Thanks for always challenging me and reminding me my calling, even when I seem not to have the faith, you still had the faith and believe in me. Thanks for all the discipleship though not a lot, but they definitely are fierce, haha. Thanks for your love and time. We must continue to meet up to have jap food together ya, with ah lian and Belinda too.haha. Minghui, I will bring what I have learnt in N317 to my new cg, and be helping Joanne with the cg.
Gwen: Thanks for being my best friend in the cg, thanks for the times you lend me your ears to listen even though you are very tired. Thanks for all the fun, laughter we had together, thanks for believing in me too. Thanks for always been there when I need someone. I m so gonna miss you when I go over to the next cg. Must meet up often ya. Continue to help minghui in the cg and may you rise up as a cgl soon.
Aaron: thanks for always been so willing to serve and always willing to share with me what you go through, I hope I have given good advises that help you. Continue to grow in the Lord and help Lucas in the new cg ya, anything you can still call or drop me a msg. Thanks for always being more anxious than me finding a bf, haha. Dun worry, I am sure God will give me a good husband who can take care of me. And I am sure He will give you a new girlfriend too.
Hansheng: Will miss taking the train with you and hear you talking about your canoeing. Thanks for always encouraging me to run and exercise. Jia you in your walk with God ya and rise up to be a connect group leader soon.
Huiwen: Thanks for always being so encouraging and I enjoyed the times we chat over the phone though not a lot of times, but they were long calls. Hope to see you be a connect group leader soon ya, must help Minghui in the cg and continue to prepare good refreshments. You have always prepared refreshments without complaining even if last min no one can help you buy the food, and the times you always take pictures of yourself. Haha. Keep in touch.
Jane: even as you move on to Lucas cg, do help him out in the cg ya, continue to grow in the Lord and do even more things for Him, I have really seen you grow over the past 1.5 yrs, continue to do greater things for God
Jasmine: you are a strong gal, even got parental objection, you still insist on coming to church and having to go out so early on Sundays just to come for service and you always bring so many friends, I was really encouraged by what you did, jia you gal, and will be praying for your breakthrough
Ian: haven know you for long time but think you are a cute and nice guy, hope to see u more in church.hehe
Justine: even as you move on to Jared’s cg, continue to bring the DNA of N317 over, that is our noisiness and cheerfulness, you can continue to call me anytime you want. Haha, now our cg is on Friday, maybe we can go out on Saturdays together. Yeah. Continue to grow in the Lord and shine for Him in TP.
Valerie: my beloved daughter, haha, thanks for all the presents and the treats, you are always such a giving person, continue to grow in the Lord ya, must jia you in your walk with God and share with your new connect group leader or even Minghui, you can still call me ya, we still can pray together, go out together. Thanks for everything gal, for the friendship or should I say daughter-ship.haha. see you around more ya.
Vera: Hey gal, have also seen u grow for the past one yr, must take care ya. Hope to see u more around in church, will miss u so much
IN CONCLUSION, N317, I WILL MISS EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU, MINGHUI, THANKS FOR YOUR LOVE AND TIME AND EFFORT AND FAITH, I WILL DEFINITELY MISS YOU. DUN FORGET TO TELL ME WHEN YOU ARE HAVING A BABY YA, AND REMEMBER TO SAVE A DAY FOR ME TO CELEBRATE YOUR BDAY YA. I LOVE EVERYONE IN N317!
Have adjusted my mood to go over to N351, yesterday Selena met me up for dinner, it was really nice of her to sacrifice her time and meet me despite her busy schedule, she is really someone who is full of love for our members, she is willing to spent almost everyday to tutor our members. she is 26 this yr and Yong Wei is also older than me, finally i am in a cg with more people older than me, haha. Hmmm, we have a great chat yesterday and i was sharing with her bout the china friends i know recently-Jade, Natalie, Vivian, Free and April. we had a great time yesterday and it helps, when i go for cg on Fri, i wun feel so awkward. though there is still fear in me, but i going to put faith in God. Hope i will have a great time in my 1st meeting on friday. it is not that bad, that time when i go N317, i only know Minghui, but now going to N351, at least now i know Joanne, Trudy, Yong Wei, Moses. somemore Xiaolu and Joe are in my usher section. and now i know Selena, guess things wun be so bad when i go for the cg.hee
The 4 of us leaving using our figure to spell "N317"
Valerie(My daughter) & I
Jade and Natalie who specially came down for cg knowing its my last cg with N317
My beloved cgl and me
Its still us
The 4 who are leaving with our beloved cgl
Huiwen gave us donuts and letters :)
"You are the light of the world.
let your light shine before men,
that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven."
God's beloved child
18th November 1985
A new Netbook / Ipad
A Secret desire...hee
Get my degree by 30yr old
Rise up to be connect group leader again