Morning Prayer from 8 - 12 June 2009
Today marks the last day of the morning prayer for this period. Pst Kong was there every morning to lead us to pray in the spirit from 6.45-7.15am, then he will share a verse with us before we pray on our own for 15-20 mins, then worship and pray together.
Philippians 2:12-13
Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling; for it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure.
Thats the difference during school holidays and not.when its normal school days, i wake up at 5.45 and reach church at bout 7, but during scholl holidays, i wake up at 5.45 and i reach church at 6.30am...haha...this week morning prayer have been great and refreshing...though i wake up early, but i dun feel tired at all during work, instead i have more ideas to my proposal and more effective in work...hee...tonight looking forward to song of solomon bs part 3 by pst kong...
ytd chat with Eunice over the phone..so happy...cannot believe she will be back in less than a week time..i want a big bear hug..haha...eunice, i going to intro my new cgl-Joanne to you :)
HaAPPY HAPPY!!!
so happy today...hee...recently in work, my performance have not really been up to the standard of my director and some of things he is not very happy with it...haiz...was feeling upset, down and discouraged about it...was thinking am I really suitable for the executive post?
last Fri i did a presentation of my colleagues from Vietnam and my director was inside...normally this presentation is done my manager but cause he was on leave, i had to present it on last fri...but after that, i din know how well/badly i did cause din receive any feedback...till just now...my director was telling my manager that i did a very good job..he told my manager that he be surprised how well i can present...even better than one of our marketing executive who always presents our company profiles to customer..my manager say too bad he was not there to see how i have presented..
he told me my director wants me to present it again but in chinese next fri to one of our future colleague from China...stress cause this time my manager be there too but happy to hear the compliments..was telling my manager have been receiving some negative feedbacks and felt stress...he say stress is a good thing..haha...then i say finally something good..he also very happy for me...cause once my director complement...means i have really done well :)
Song of Solomon BS Part 2
Bible study was simply great ytd..the presence of God was strong..during worship i was crying..when Pst Tan was preaching i cry too..he mentioned that the shulamite woman was in her winter season and everone of us have our winter season..and there are times when our leaders cannot help us, we just have to go through it ourself, but after every winter comes spring, so after every death comes resurrection, he mention that when we are in our winter period, we cry easily cause our heart is tender, i felt that ya, i have been in my winter period, maybe God has been calling me out of my "house" to experience the spring, but i chose to stay in the "house" like the shulamite woman.
Joanne is my 9th cgl in 9 yrs, i felt no one will ever understand how i feel cause dun think people change as many cg as me..i was just tired, i chose to be laid back..but Pst Tan preach that what Jesus go through we go through, as believers, we believe that after we die, we will resurrect and be in Heaven like Jesus, Jesus went through water baptism, that y we get water baptised, why do we get baptise in the Holy Spirit?cause the spirit came upon Jesus after He was water baptised by John, Jesus went through 40 days in the wilderness, he went through the bearing of cross and death. thats y sometimes we go through the diffcult times so we may be able to identity with Christ..though i felt no one can understand how i felt with changing cg after cg, but i know Jesus understands, He went to cities after cities to preach the gospel, he did not just stay in 1 city..
after the bs ytd, when i reach home, i sms joanne to ask she is asleep and we chat on the phone...i told her bout what i felt and why i seem so cold, not bother about the cg..cause at that time in my mind, i told myself if i dun want to change cg again, the way is to not share with my leader and not be so involved in the cg, just a normal member..but that is not my calling..i m called to do greater things, how can i be so selfish as not to do God's work just because i am tired of all the change..i know i will soon enter my spring period..DEVIL, YOU THINK YOU CAN MAKE ME GIVE UP?YOU ARE WRONG...Jesus, give me the strength and continue to lead and guide me..i want to enter spring and see the things you have in plan for me..thank you for the Song of Solomon bs which have benefited me alot these 2 weeks..Joanne, give me some more time to adapt to the cg :)
