Bible study was simply great ytd..the presence of God was strong..during worship i was crying..when Pst Tan was preaching i cry too..he mentioned that the shulamite woman was in her winter season and everone of us have our winter season..and there are times when our leaders cannot help us, we just have to go through it ourself, but after every winter comes spring, so after every death comes resurrection, he mention that when we are in our winter period, we cry easily cause our heart is tender, i felt that ya, i have been in my winter period, maybe God has been calling me out of my "house" to experience the spring, but i chose to stay in the "house" like the shulamite woman.
Joanne is my 9th cgl in 9 yrs, i felt no one will ever understand how i feel cause dun think people change as many cg as me..i was just tired, i chose to be laid back..but Pst Tan preach that what Jesus go through we go through, as believers, we believe that after we die, we will resurrect and be in Heaven like Jesus, Jesus went through water baptism, that y we get water baptised, why do we get baptise in the Holy Spirit?cause the spirit came upon Jesus after He was water baptised by John, Jesus went through 40 days in the wilderness, he went through the bearing of cross and death. thats y sometimes we go through the diffcult times so we may be able to identity with Christ..though i felt no one can understand how i felt with changing cg after cg, but i know Jesus understands, He went to cities after cities to preach the gospel, he did not just stay in 1 city..
after the bs ytd, when i reach home, i sms joanne to ask she is asleep and we chat on the phone...i told her bout what i felt and why i seem so cold, not bother about the cg..cause at that time in my mind, i told myself if i dun want to change cg again, the way is to not share with my leader and not be so involved in the cg, just a normal member..but that is not my calling..i m called to do greater things, how can i be so selfish as not to do God's work just because i am tired of all the change..i know i will soon enter my spring period..DEVIL, YOU THINK YOU CAN MAKE ME GIVE UP?YOU ARE WRONG...Jesus, give me the strength and continue to lead and guide me..i want to enter spring and see the things you have in plan for me..thank you for the Song of Solomon bs which have benefited me alot these 2 weeks..Joanne, give me some more time to adapt to the cg :)
"You are the light of the world.
let your light shine before men,
that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven."
God's beloved child
18th November 1985
A new Netbook / Ipad
A Secret desire...hee
Get my degree by 30yr old
Rise up to be connect group leader again