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Letting Go and Let God take over

Monday, September 14, 2009

Last few weeks had been really bad for me. Got involved in this relationship with Mr X. But we were only together for 7 days (to be exact 4 day, the other 3 days he was cold towards me). My heart breaks when we broke off, I cried badly. After a few weeks, a friend told me he could not forget his ex-girlfriend, they were together for 10 years. Then my question is in the first place, why start? Its all over now and we are good friends.

I wanna thank a few friends who had really been there, my colleague – Benedette & Ann, they had really been there, listening to my nonsense and buying me chocolates to eat. I wanna thank my Jie (Angeline), though she kept rubbing salt into my wounds, but I know it was for my own good, cause I never learn my lesson. I wanna thanks Kai Lin from my zone, though she dunno what happen, but she read my blog and left me a message in facebook to ask if I am ok, she cared and was concern, I believed there are a few others who read my blog but only Kai Lin left me a message. Thanks gal, I really appreciate it. Thank my ushers “mei mei” – Yolanda, Priscilla & Wendy.

Thank my cell leader Joanne and my connect group leader Selena, though I only let you guys know after the whole thing is over, but I believed you guys kept me in prayer and will continue to do so. Had a very very long talk with Joanne yesterday after fellowship with cg. I also wanna thank God, for being there for me, sending different ones around me when I was at my most down period. Thanks for sending Pst Phil and Pst Kong to preach timely messages that really helped. I will stay loyal to this relationship I had with God.

Was still a bit depressed on Saturday, went service on Sunday not knowing what to expect, presence of God hit when we sang the worship song “Above all else” & “The God I know”.

No eye has seen
No ear has heard
Unfailing love
Far beyond words

The cross I see
Your blood redeems
My Imperfection
Your hands divine
Come shape this heart of mine

Here I stand, thirsting for you
Here I am, surrender to you
Let my life be you clay
Mould me in your way
Here I stand, desperate for you
Here I am, a vessel for you
Let my life sing your praise
Bring honor to your name

Beauty unfolds
Joy overflows
Your grace begins
This treasure within

Above all else
Above all else
We exalt you
We exalt you

Because of You
I was born again
Because of You
I’m ransomed by Your grace
Because of You
My heart has found a home
A refuge for my soul

Because of You
Sins are washed away
Because of You
Heaven knows my name
Because of You
I can live again

You’ve broken every chain

Unfailing Love,so unreserved
You gave Yourself on Calvary
And now I stand, forever free
My Saviour rescued me

Now heaven, be open
Our God is, unshaken
We worship, Christ risen High above
Now heaven, be open
All kingdoms, all nations
Declare that “You are God”

During the preaching of the word, I cried. During Altar call, I told God that I lift everything up onto his hands and ask Him to heal me, not just in my body but also emotionally. Felt so much better today.

Mr X, dun think you have my blog anyway or facebook, but thanks for giving me that 4 days, I was very happy. These will be my memories.

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